(28-08-2023, 08:21 PM)Mashtenn Wrote: [ -> ]I'm very happy for you. 
I haven't seen you this excited in a while. I glad that your lactation pump has made your nipples very sensitive and that you're supply seems to be increasing. This picture really shows how your nipples have grown and I can see that your montgomery glands are developing.
Its so amazing really, there's so much going all at once and I know from experience how high prolactin and lactation will make a lot of new development happen. On its own, and this time its side by side with BO at optimal dosage and the topical program. Like firing at this from every possible angle. Needless to say, my bra is at the point where its extremely uncomfortable. I should get the new one tomorrow or wednesday, me and gf are going to her cottage for few days and that means picking up the bra, iHerb order we placed for bunch of things and some peace and quiet until for the rest of the week.
Nipple development feels like its going on another level by this pace. I have no idea how much will be permanent and how soon, but the change with swelling and getting them so full so easy is really positive and a bit surprising change. The pump is amazingly good, for the price it darn well should be and its proving the reviews being correct, most of which were praise about how handy and powerful this little device is. OH and glands showing change is so welcome sign, I bet that's rising prolactin doing it too. Right now I have 54 hours done, very achy and sensitive breasts, but no broken skin or blisters at all. I've been making sure to keep them moisturised but it seems I wouldn't even need to. Its intense, but still delicate enough for me. I love every bit of this.
Your new pump was designed to gently stimulate and massage the nipples while extracting milk from the breasts. I tried one that my daughter was using to get the milk out of her breast and also to increase supply. Breast feeding women often use one when their breasts become engorged with milk and need to relieve the supply. As I said earlier I'm happy for you.
I guess I'm 38KK/P now.
My new bra fits awesomely. I noticed how the 36KK had bent wires out of shape and the band had got way longer than the 38 is as new. Second or third time outgrowing one of these bras like this. Kinda funny. The new one obeys Elomi sizing as usual, fits super comfy, soft cups still fold a bit and there is space to grow into, but little enough to wear it easy. Love it. I guess that does it, ABTF is spot on, I'm 38KK now.
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It fits you well. Yesterday I noticed how I'm filling out some of my bras. I posted when I first got it and yesterday. I guess I may be moving up a cup size soon.
(29-08-2023, 06:03 PM)Mashtenn Wrote: [ -> ]It fits you well. Yesterday I noticed how I'm filling out some of my bras. I posted when I first got it and yesterday. I guess I may be moving up a cup size soon.
Its lovely, I will take some pics in better light showing the entire thing once I have the chance. It looks kinda silly with the soft cups going on folds, but that's a feature of these bras. Only when its totally bursting with too much boob, will it not fold at all. I dunno why, I blame my wide shape and the way these bras work.
Its a nursing bra after all and a very good one at that. I've read so much praise for Elomi Molly and I can tell all those ladies have been correct.
Going up the size? Which one is the next for you? I think you looked like in some recent pic that you're really needing to upgrade soon or the cups are gonna burst. xD Or some serious quad boobing qwill happen.
I've been buying either 38C or 40B. The pictures I put on my thread is a medium pushup in a 40B. I'm considering getting a 40C to see how it fits.
(29-08-2023, 06:23 PM)Mashtenn Wrote: [ -> ]I've been buying either 38C or 40B. The pictures I put on my thread is a medium pushup in a 40B. I'm considering getting a 40C to see how it fits.
You might really need to upgrade soon. B cups likely are not wide enough and wire sits on your breast instead of where the root ends, typical issue with smaller cups. My gf just went up from B to DD and two band sizes down, like magic, the cup width was nearly spot on and she was surprised to see that she actually fills them well. So that was both up a size and going to a sister size at the same time.
It really irks me that bra manufacturers outside custom stuff do not offer choice on wire width and cup depth, even those two along with band and cup volume would do wonders on bra fitting. Let alone even more details to get just right. This is where I will be heading at some point, I'm nowhere near done yet and once ordinary sizing runs out, then I'm going to dig into the Polish custom shops who take orders with bunch of details to make it right. The only thing that bothers me about this is the cost. At least for now, I several bras that will fit me for a good while without problems.
This is something I just wrote on my Discord server... I just need to vent and shout this to the void. I dunno if anyone would have any answers or ideas anyway. I think I've heard it all already.
I'm kinda pissed off.
What to do with my obviously stuck up sexuality? I don't know what to do with my body when its not finished and ready... I can't be spontaneous with anything, I can't even please my partners as I'm sort of semi asexual or something these days, I very rarely feel that I want to do anything at all. I can't be without any thoughts of sex for weeks upon weeks, then feel on the mood for a while and its gone again and all actual doing stuff feels awkward and wrong because my body is messed up and not ready. It makes my dysphoria go totally nuts when ever someone sees my genitals let alone touches down there or anything like that.
Its so strange how it seems like most trans women become totally hypersexual overly horny at all times and go nuts with it and hav fantastic sex lives... And then I get stuck up, not knowing what to do and how and most of the time I'm just not on the mood. Yet at the same time I have needs which are not being met at all, mostly because I'm not on the mood almost ever. How to deal with this? What can I do?
I feel that I somehow broke my sexuality back in the day and burned out somehow. The moment the physical urge was gone along with T dominance, I've felt such peace of mind but also this weird aversion to sex. And I still have needs and not getting much anything for over two years is really making me crazy, its doing very bad things to my mental health and its ruining what little confidence I have. Yet I just can't force myself into it. What to do? Its so annoying... And having my body ready will take another two years no matter what I do. As long as my genitals are not rearranged, this problem will persist to some extent. At least now I don't hate my body at all times when someone is close to me. It feels like kisses and cuddles are often enough, but still it isn't. I'm not ace, I have needs and its so rare that I'm on the mood. And then I'm supposed to look at others who go totally crazy with it. Like how? How is it suddenly so amazing the moment they get on HRT? Huh? How does that work? I really wish I knew so I could feel fine with sex too.
(30-08-2023, 11:22 AM)HelloDiDi Wrote: [ -> ]This is something I just wrote on my Discord server... I just need to vent and shout this to the void. I dunno if anyone would have any answers or ideas anyway. I think I've heard it all already.
I'm kinda pissed off.
What to do with my obviously stuck up sexuality? I don't know what to do with my body when its not finished and ready... I can't be spontaneous with anything, I can't even please my partners as I'm sort of semi asexual or something these days, I very rarely feel that I want to do anything at all. I can't be without any thoughts of sex for weeks upon weeks, then feel on the mood for a while and its gone again and all actual doing stuff feels awkward and wrong because my body is messed up and not ready. It makes my dysphoria go totally nuts when ever someone sees my genitals let alone touches down there or anything like that.
Its so strange how it seems like most trans women become totally hypersexual overly horny at all times and go nuts with it and hav fantastic sex lives... And then I get stuck up, not knowing what to do and how and most of the time I'm just not on the mood. Yet at the same time I have needs which are not being met at all, mostly because I'm not on the mood almost ever. How to deal with this? What can I do?
I feel that I somehow broke my sexuality back in the day and burned out somehow. The moment the physical urge was gone along with T dominance, I've felt such peace of mind but also this weird aversion to sex. And I still have needs and not getting much anything for over two years is really making me crazy, its doing very bad things to my mental health and its ruining what little confidence I have. Yet I just can't force myself into it. What to do? Its so annoying... And having my body ready will take another two years no matter what I do. As long as my genitals are not rearranged, this problem will persist to some extent. At least now I don't hate my body at all times when someone is close to me. It feels like kisses and cuddles are often enough, but still it isn't. I'm not ace, I have needs and its so rare that I'm on the mood. And then I'm supposed to look at others who go totally crazy with it. Like how? How is it suddenly so amazing the moment they get on HRT? Huh? How does that work? I really wish I knew so I could feel fine with sex too.
Been busy and catching up now. You have developed in leaps and bounds .
your lactation is progressing well. Sexuality is where I get stumped.
I have Ed last 15 odd yrs . Self pressure is most satisfying.
Its really been amazing with body changes and boobs are just ballooning, I never thought anything would bring in this kind of change at this phase of development, but its happening. Strongly advocate for the BO + topical program combination and also elevated prolactin from pumping and supplementation. Right now my nipples and entire areola area are soaked after each pumping session and I need to wash the funnel flanges quite often. I did also get some blisters on my right nipple as I made the mistake to pump after sauna when skin is extra soft.
Sexuality, yea I don't know how much of my problem is physical and how much mental. Its a whole lot both, but dysphoria makes it difficult. In past I was "ok" with a lot of it as I knew how to deal with my body, I deisassociated a lot and being able to please my partners so well made it more bearable. I lived through them a lot. But now its different. I know for sure that getting my body ready and as fixed as it can become will make a world of difference because dysphoria wont bother me as much. Its already much better compared to say a year ago, but still a huge problem. I'm just happy my partners are patient with me and we communicate and stuff. I know not everyone would have the patience with me as there's more of a promise of sex life than things going on right now.
Anyway, its not something I need to solve right now, just frustrating to have it not so self explanatory as it used to be.
Next few days will have bunch of little milestones coming one after another, one month on higher doses of vitamin A and Blessed Thistle. Then 26½ months on HRT, one month on elevated doses of DHEA and PG creams and estrogel, then two months on topical program. All within five days of each other. I will try to get some pics taken to update the short term timeline at least.