01-12-2021, 08:40 AM
(30-11-2021, 07:28 PM)Nipply Russel Wrote:(30-11-2021, 09:44 AM)HelloDiDi Wrote: I'm extremely afraid that I will stall and things wont change... I'm supposed to add boron and PG to my HRT but I don't have the money for it, I have money for nothing. Its hand to mouth all the time, hell I can't even buy myself nice winter shoes. I'm so so afraid that I'll get stuck and my boobs will stall no matter what I do.... I haven't yet had a month with this little change. They got better few weeks back consistently and now nothing.
I don't want to go from awesome start to just another trans girl who's just like everyone else. I'm scared of failing.
I'm sorry to hear that you're having a hard time right now. Here's a thought: maybe take a break from the measuring for a while and let the changes happen? As they say, "a watched pot never boils." You're denying yourself the perspective and excitement of big changes because you're busy tracking the minute ones. Maybe focus on mental health/happiness for a couple of months and you might end up like, "OH, boobs!"
Kind better today, I'm heading out quite soon to get my first ever labs done. I'm already doing that, measuring all the time is tedious and disheartening. I thought I would measure once a week on sundays, would make sense as sunday morning is injection day, take my shot, measure and forget the numbers. Then look back at it later on, that's always a nice surprise... Or it has been so far, dunno about now.
I think adding progesterone and tweaking my dosage accordingly once I get my bloods done might help. If I keep on being stuck for another month, I'm gonna add 2mg oral E on top of the injections for a while and see if that kicks things on the move.