[Beverley50]

Bev
I think without doubt YOU are transexual,
but the line really is not as rigid as this,

I have been on herbs 8 plus years , pharma 2 years

I live as Male, act male and in the bedroom,

I dont consider myself transsexual and neither do many others here or ok a few ?

x


Julie

Hi Julie,

Yes I'm different. I have not acted male in the bedroom for 20+ years. When I was young yes, it was exciting and new. Since I was a professional musician then I had many spontaneous and very frantic sexual encounters with both sexes, often initiated by a a wink or "that look" from someone in the audience, or through discrete notes or messages. OMG I was very promiscuous then. However, this lifestyle has tapered off as I got older and I'm more content now. I am still impulsive from time to time, but I'm also a lot more selective. (I know you're probably thinking AIDS right). Well I've been very careful throughout my life, went for regular HIV tests and have never contracted anything.

Anyway, this is all beside the point. So yes, in the context of the definition, I am transsexual, and I am starting to feel more comfortable with it. The more prominent my breasts have become, the more my sense of fear and doubt is starting to recede, and the more accepting, comfortable and confident I'm starting to feel too. I am definitely experiencing mental and emotional changes too. My brain is changing. Whereas before it was just about dressing up and hanging out with other cross-dressers, since starting my experiment with fenugreek in November last year, and moreso through my current herbal HRT program, EVERYTHING has changed. How can I stop my journey now. I cannot and I don't want to. 

I am now with a female doctor who has experience with people like me, and has indicated full support of my case, and I feel so blessed to have found her. So this will be an ongoing story.

Still waiting for my hormone results.