23-02-2013, 01:15 AM
(This post was last modified: 23-02-2013, 04:49 AM by Marina Kits.)
Hi everyone. I’ve been observing (not lurking) for a couple weeks now. I posted an intro where those belong but I wanted to do the same here because this is where I hang out most of the time. Also, I wanted to say thank you to so many of you. Pansy-Mae, Flamesabers, AbiDrew85, MonicaT, sfem, SarahSchilling, Lenneth, KellyG, Alexis, Bryony, Doll, PattiJT, JMT, Aleah, Mandy88, Dargona and especially Misty0732 – there are others I’ve missed I’m sure but you all have helped me without even knowing it. I’m so grateful for all the time each of you has put into your thoughtful posts and for the way you treat others here. This is the nicest board I’ve had the privilege of reading!
I’m in my early forties, happily married for 20 years with 2 kids I love dearly. I’ve always thought about transitioning but by the time I knew it was a real possibility, I was already married and I now feel obligated to remain as I am for the sake of my wife and kids. Even though I’m new here on Breast Nexus, I’m not trying to discover myself as some are. I accept myself as I am somewhere closer to the middle of the male female continuum and I know for sure that I want to get as close to feminine as I can in the way I look and dress… but still come off as a biological male to those who know me as well as strangers on the street. I’m a girl at heart in a boy wrapper and that’s the way it’s going to stay. I’m not sickened and repulsed by the boy side but, if I could fully express the inner girl without consequences, I certainly would.
So I ordered a bottle of PM from Amazon on the 9th but it still hasn’t arrived darn it! It supposedly left Taiwan on Tuesday so who knows when it will get to my house. I ordered a NB on Wednesday and got it a few hours ago – if only they stayed that size when the suction was released! About a week ago, I started taking a low dose (320ish daily) of SP. I can’t wait to get going on the PM. The breast enlargement will of course be very welcome but I’m even more anxious to see how it affects me mentally. I’m hoping for an easing of all the desires I have as some of you have indicated it has done for you. It’s a win win either way though.
I’m feeling comfortable enough to start posting once in a while so maybe you’ll see me more often. There was / is so much for me to learn when I first got here but at least I understand the acronyms now and have a general understanding of what they all do. I appreciate all of you and feel like I’ve found a place that that feels a lot like home. I hope to get to know all of you better in the months to come.
I’m in my early forties, happily married for 20 years with 2 kids I love dearly. I’ve always thought about transitioning but by the time I knew it was a real possibility, I was already married and I now feel obligated to remain as I am for the sake of my wife and kids. Even though I’m new here on Breast Nexus, I’m not trying to discover myself as some are. I accept myself as I am somewhere closer to the middle of the male female continuum and I know for sure that I want to get as close to feminine as I can in the way I look and dress… but still come off as a biological male to those who know me as well as strangers on the street. I’m a girl at heart in a boy wrapper and that’s the way it’s going to stay. I’m not sickened and repulsed by the boy side but, if I could fully express the inner girl without consequences, I certainly would.
So I ordered a bottle of PM from Amazon on the 9th but it still hasn’t arrived darn it! It supposedly left Taiwan on Tuesday so who knows when it will get to my house. I ordered a NB on Wednesday and got it a few hours ago – if only they stayed that size when the suction was released! About a week ago, I started taking a low dose (320ish daily) of SP. I can’t wait to get going on the PM. The breast enlargement will of course be very welcome but I’m even more anxious to see how it affects me mentally. I’m hoping for an easing of all the desires I have as some of you have indicated it has done for you. It’s a win win either way though.
I’m feeling comfortable enough to start posting once in a while so maybe you’ll see me more often. There was / is so much for me to learn when I first got here but at least I understand the acronyms now and have a general understanding of what they all do. I appreciate all of you and feel like I’ve found a place that that feels a lot like home. I hope to get to know all of you better in the months to come.