(02-01-2015, 06:59 PM)ClaraKay Wrote: That's interesting, Eva, about fitting in with women as another woman. I think it's less of a problem for me because I have always gravitated to the women in any kind of social gathering. It was being a man among men that was always a problem for me in that I generally felt unsure of my masculinity. Of course, now I know why....lol.
It's very strange how powerful that preference for women's company is for me. In a group of transwomen, I'm fine. In a group of male identified CDs I'm fine, but only if I've only seen them in their female presentation and I assume their feminine personality is real. Many CDs have no hesitation about presenting as male in certain situations, but for me it changes my perception of the person to that of a man in a dress, not a woman. I respect their special place on the gender spectrum, but I can't identify with it, and it affects the way I interact with them, if I interact all.
For example, if I was still working now, as a transwoman, I would have lunch with the GGs (if they would have me), not the guys. No question about it.
Clara
Well were different, I was never really comfortable around women because I wasnt comfortable with myself at all as a guy... Women of course are very good at reading people and they could sense that about me... I was able to be a man among men and I did OK but inside I always felt uncomfortable inadequate and a fake, like I was hiding something and I was of course... Well guess what, its the same deal now right, "hiding something"
I am more comfortable and happier for sure living a womans life.... Problem is while my initial impression on people is very good and Im sure I "pass" by the way Im treated by them.... Its a bit harder as women I meet and interact with actually start treating me in totally new ways Ive never experienced and I feel LOST at times... I am very self conscious I guess and I hate that
Believe it or not Im very comfortable now as a woman among men... I understand men a lot more than I do women being raised as one after all... Its very comforting and validating to just be around men now because its obvious Im definitely not a man
Id definitely rather work with men than women, men are simple to me and women are complex
There is practically ZERO TG "scene" here, only a few CD's I know of and only one other TS girl I dont get along with at all... I doubt Id have much involvement with that scene if there was one though... When I was just getting started it would have been a help for sure though...
As far as CD's go??? Well I used to be one so I can definitely identify with them... Technically and legally Im just REAL good at it and I CD 24/7
I personally dont see much difference between a CD and a TS, certainly some CD's go on eventually to fully transition....