23-09-2023, 08:30 PM
Back again with an 18 week update.
You can see what I took and my measurements in the attachments. I don’t really think the measurements are very useful at this point. I’ve noticed more changes in shape and density than size, which I like.
I’ve decided to stop using PM entirely for the time being. It makes me feel awful, a bit like a hangover. Plus weight gain, plus bloating and constipation, plus leg cramps.
I’ve switched back to FG and have added red clover (RC) just to see how it feels. I’ve also started saw palmetto (SP) as it seems to be a fairly mild AA despite swearing I wouldn’t take an AA. If I experience problems, I’ll drop it.
I’ve put off progesterone and DHEA until later in my next 6 week block of supplementation. I’ll be using topical oils from BHRT Naturals.
I haven’t really counted my other supplements as part of my NBE science project, but here they are in case they may be relevant. I take fish oil, collagen, Vitamin D3, niacin, and calcium. I took all these before I started NBE for cholesterol and other reasons.
In the pic, I think you can see more of a change than in the last update. You can also see the bloating and weight gain. PM is no joke.
Now for some personal thoughts on how I’m feeling about all this.
I’ve continued to take a deep dive into reading about trans experiences here and on reddit (cuz not sure where else to look). I find my internal monologue often telling me that I don’t want to go down that path. I don’t see myself much in most of the stories, in fact, although I do relate to the struggles for other reasons.
The major differences are that my orientation is still very much gay and I still don’t find feminization an attractive option for me. I know many people say that and then decide somewhere along the way that they do want to feminize. I was prepared for that but 18 weeks in and I’m still not feeling it.
I do feel a shared dread that many feel regarding the social changes, which in my case is related to the possibility of becoming undesirable to the men I’m attracted to, especially younger men.
I feel like there must be a community of gay men who like dudes with boobs (as opposed to chics with dicks?). But I haven’t found it except in a few Telegram groups mostly from outside the US.
Thanks for reading.
You can see what I took and my measurements in the attachments. I don’t really think the measurements are very useful at this point. I’ve noticed more changes in shape and density than size, which I like.
I’ve decided to stop using PM entirely for the time being. It makes me feel awful, a bit like a hangover. Plus weight gain, plus bloating and constipation, plus leg cramps.
I’ve switched back to FG and have added red clover (RC) just to see how it feels. I’ve also started saw palmetto (SP) as it seems to be a fairly mild AA despite swearing I wouldn’t take an AA. If I experience problems, I’ll drop it.
I’ve put off progesterone and DHEA until later in my next 6 week block of supplementation. I’ll be using topical oils from BHRT Naturals.
I haven’t really counted my other supplements as part of my NBE science project, but here they are in case they may be relevant. I take fish oil, collagen, Vitamin D3, niacin, and calcium. I took all these before I started NBE for cholesterol and other reasons.
In the pic, I think you can see more of a change than in the last update. You can also see the bloating and weight gain. PM is no joke.
Now for some personal thoughts on how I’m feeling about all this.
I’ve continued to take a deep dive into reading about trans experiences here and on reddit (cuz not sure where else to look). I find my internal monologue often telling me that I don’t want to go down that path. I don’t see myself much in most of the stories, in fact, although I do relate to the struggles for other reasons.
The major differences are that my orientation is still very much gay and I still don’t find feminization an attractive option for me. I know many people say that and then decide somewhere along the way that they do want to feminize. I was prepared for that but 18 weeks in and I’m still not feeling it.
I do feel a shared dread that many feel regarding the social changes, which in my case is related to the possibility of becoming undesirable to the men I’m attracted to, especially younger men.
I feel like there must be a community of gay men who like dudes with boobs (as opposed to chics with dicks?). But I haven’t found it except in a few Telegram groups mostly from outside the US.
Thanks for reading.