26-04-2024, 08:10 AM
Quick update as i'm in a hurry...
Hormone clinic was a total asshole to me as expected. They want me to stop my perfectly working HRT and take tiny amount of gel and T blocker instead. They tried to push spiro on me which I refused. They will only give me a tiny drop of gel, no progesterone, they want me to drop my levels below 0.7 nmol/l which would fuck up my mental health, but that does not matter. My body changes do not matter, I told the doctor that look at me, this body doesn't come out of nowhere.
Then the bomb, I will never qualify for SRS in Finland. The BMI requirement has been dropped to absolutely insane 28. I should weight about 90kg to be there, if I do, my abs are showing because my fat % is close to ten when I'm that skinny. So I should sacrifice all my hard work, the EXPENSIVE and painful plastic surgery results, everything that makes me 100% cis passable and feminine just to appease the health fascists. This system is purely transphobic and leave also a lot of cis people out of care.
How do I earn or get donated 15k-20k€ so I can go get SRS abroad? That is my only choise now as I'm too fat to be a woman in Finland. This society is not civilised, it knows no justice or has any sense. I have diagnosed medical need for this care, but I'm being declined on political reasoning. This has nothing to do with medicine, its politics. Thanks to our right wing jesus fascist asshole govt.
Then good news, my plastic surgeon is helping me figure out where and how to do the SRS, he told me my recovery is going really nicely, said that I'm beautiful, that my body shape is becoming very feminine. About boobs he thought about shaping them more rather than adding volume. I told him to do both, just go as big as they get, I wont mind. I mentioned about my weight, said that I might slim down a bit, he told me to take no stress about it as its a non issue and just gives excellent figure to work on. And he's right, this is the difference between private and public sector. Public is transphobis hateful fuck who tells me I'm not even a woman and I have no rights, private asks how do we deal with this?
My second surgery is in September, date I get when they get booked. No idea if I'll ever get correct anatomy as I need money I don't have, but that's my only choice left. Finland can fuck off! This country is hateful discriminatory cunt! I will never give away my results, not my GOLD STANDARD HRT, not the surgery results. I'm starting to love my body a lot and I wont ever compromise that for health fascist bullshit.
Oh and I have a new dress.
Hormone clinic was a total asshole to me as expected. They want me to stop my perfectly working HRT and take tiny amount of gel and T blocker instead. They tried to push spiro on me which I refused. They will only give me a tiny drop of gel, no progesterone, they want me to drop my levels below 0.7 nmol/l which would fuck up my mental health, but that does not matter. My body changes do not matter, I told the doctor that look at me, this body doesn't come out of nowhere.
Then the bomb, I will never qualify for SRS in Finland. The BMI requirement has been dropped to absolutely insane 28. I should weight about 90kg to be there, if I do, my abs are showing because my fat % is close to ten when I'm that skinny. So I should sacrifice all my hard work, the EXPENSIVE and painful plastic surgery results, everything that makes me 100% cis passable and feminine just to appease the health fascists. This system is purely transphobic and leave also a lot of cis people out of care.
How do I earn or get donated 15k-20k€ so I can go get SRS abroad? That is my only choise now as I'm too fat to be a woman in Finland. This society is not civilised, it knows no justice or has any sense. I have diagnosed medical need for this care, but I'm being declined on political reasoning. This has nothing to do with medicine, its politics. Thanks to our right wing jesus fascist asshole govt.
Then good news, my plastic surgeon is helping me figure out where and how to do the SRS, he told me my recovery is going really nicely, said that I'm beautiful, that my body shape is becoming very feminine. About boobs he thought about shaping them more rather than adding volume. I told him to do both, just go as big as they get, I wont mind. I mentioned about my weight, said that I might slim down a bit, he told me to take no stress about it as its a non issue and just gives excellent figure to work on. And he's right, this is the difference between private and public sector. Public is transphobis hateful fuck who tells me I'm not even a woman and I have no rights, private asks how do we deal with this?
My second surgery is in September, date I get when they get booked. No idea if I'll ever get correct anatomy as I need money I don't have, but that's my only choice left. Finland can fuck off! This country is hateful discriminatory cunt! I will never give away my results, not my GOLD STANDARD HRT, not the surgery results. I'm starting to love my body a lot and I wont ever compromise that for health fascist bullshit.
Oh and I have a new dress.