25-02-2024, 02:57 PM
(25-02-2024, 08:51 AM)ukxdress Wrote: Hello DiDi,
I really don't post enough on here, but have just read your thread a see you had a 'wobble' . I really hope you are feeling much better these days.
My opinion counts for nothing, but looking at your pictures, I see a beautiful woman. Your journey has been an inspiration to many here at BN.
Maybe it's time for a cup of tea, a big deep breath, chest out, then grab life by the balls, and remind it who's in charge. Easy for me to type, but I'm sure you can do it.
I'm off town for a week, at my girlfirends place. Tomorrow going to get her new car and then just relax and enjoy the peace and quiet of countryside, then next week the appointments in Helsinki, its a nice little breather from daily life, I'm going to mostly just eat, sleep, relax and go to sauna and keep healing. My mental health is a constant up and down and some times I want to vent about it by shouting into the void... I don't post those things as anything but just letting it all out somewhere. Its therapeutic some times.
I think I've had lately something akin to post operative depression, not horrendously bad, but some very dysphoric days. Its tough, especially when achieving new amazing things and feeling that something or someone is always pissing into my parade, as if I'm not allowed to feel genuine happiness for what I'm doing. Its not like I'm some high and mighty demigod on a pedestal, just some pure joy of making this happen for real. ^_^