16-02-2024, 07:32 AM
I'm feeling a bit better today. Deleting that mind-fuck-a-gram was the best thing I've done for a while. I'm no good to post anything in there... I feel way too inferior and disgusting. I'm going to stop posting pics anywhere except here and maybe some random one on facebook some times. I'm totally absolutely fucking done with all social media fake unreal SIMS shite from planet zog which has nothing to do with real life or real people any more. That can all go, I have to protect myself and try to heal.
With that out of the way, its day ten post op and I think this is the day I wont take a single painkiller any more. Yesterday morning was harsh so I still had to take some but today I feel fine. Except for the headache from sleeping with my neck bent in a nasty way. Darn messed up pillow did it.
So, almost no pain what so ever, only when I get up from bed or sit down/bend over etc., and its defined to love handle area and lower part of flanks where I have those big stretch marks. Below them was a hard spot with very thick fat tissue which required quite a job to deal with. Especially on my right is the problem spot. Interestingly, lipo has made the stretch marks much longer and thicker and they stand out. Not that I mind, those are some of the most feminine feature I have as they're on my hips, right where the bone is close to skin. I've only seen cis women get them like that and I love it. I'm absolutely going to highlight them in pictures and not shy away from being so "ugly" and "faulty" and shit. Screw beauty standards, its all lies and bullshit anyway, this is how a real woman looks like. lol.
And then some breast pics, I took them in dim lighting with the spotlight next to me just so that I can get a strong contrast going. Its a long time since I took photos in this kind of light.
I'm very much still in T4, somehow the fat graft enchaned it, my areolas are much wider than before and they stand out a lot. I'm also very disappointed how my nipples have gone back to being so goddamn tiny. All it took was few weeks off of lactation and pumping. It seems I can't make them grow permanently at all. Almost six months of pumping with +600 recorded hours and lactating for a long time did nothing. I'm totally out of ideas, maybe they will never grow permanently, maybe mine are the kind which swell enormous but just don't grow permanent size ever, at all. I'm very disappointed about that as I want big feminine nipples, but I guess I'll have them ugly tiny peas for the rest of my life, unless someone comes up with plastic surgery fix to that which I have no nowledge existing?
It seems like I can't have them the way I want to. I can make my boobs huge, I can get several fat grafts, even opt for implants to finish the job, I can do NBE for years to come, but I just can't grow my nipples. I'm so disappointed with that, everything else works out fantastically but no nipples for me... Everybody else gets them so easy, without any fucking effort it seems, but not me.
I restarted topicals btw, still missing Prog cream. I'm also restarting milk thistle and ginseng on monday, the parcel is taking ages to arrive. I'm also testing volufiline on my boobs now, its been fantastic on my lips and cheeks so far. Not that it would make me beautiful as I'm a mediocre scarecrow anyway. But worth noting, volufiline does what it promises.
With that out of the way, its day ten post op and I think this is the day I wont take a single painkiller any more. Yesterday morning was harsh so I still had to take some but today I feel fine. Except for the headache from sleeping with my neck bent in a nasty way. Darn messed up pillow did it.
So, almost no pain what so ever, only when I get up from bed or sit down/bend over etc., and its defined to love handle area and lower part of flanks where I have those big stretch marks. Below them was a hard spot with very thick fat tissue which required quite a job to deal with. Especially on my right is the problem spot. Interestingly, lipo has made the stretch marks much longer and thicker and they stand out. Not that I mind, those are some of the most feminine feature I have as they're on my hips, right where the bone is close to skin. I've only seen cis women get them like that and I love it. I'm absolutely going to highlight them in pictures and not shy away from being so "ugly" and "faulty" and shit. Screw beauty standards, its all lies and bullshit anyway, this is how a real woman looks like. lol.
And then some breast pics, I took them in dim lighting with the spotlight next to me just so that I can get a strong contrast going. Its a long time since I took photos in this kind of light.
I'm very much still in T4, somehow the fat graft enchaned it, my areolas are much wider than before and they stand out a lot. I'm also very disappointed how my nipples have gone back to being so goddamn tiny. All it took was few weeks off of lactation and pumping. It seems I can't make them grow permanently at all. Almost six months of pumping with +600 recorded hours and lactating for a long time did nothing. I'm totally out of ideas, maybe they will never grow permanently, maybe mine are the kind which swell enormous but just don't grow permanent size ever, at all. I'm very disappointed about that as I want big feminine nipples, but I guess I'll have them ugly tiny peas for the rest of my life, unless someone comes up with plastic surgery fix to that which I have no nowledge existing?
It seems like I can't have them the way I want to. I can make my boobs huge, I can get several fat grafts, even opt for implants to finish the job, I can do NBE for years to come, but I just can't grow my nipples. I'm so disappointed with that, everything else works out fantastically but no nipples for me... Everybody else gets them so easy, without any fucking effort it seems, but not me.
I restarted topicals btw, still missing Prog cream. I'm also restarting milk thistle and ginseng on monday, the parcel is taking ages to arrive. I'm also testing volufiline on my boobs now, its been fantastic on my lips and cheeks so far. Not that it would make me beautiful as I'm a mediocre scarecrow anyway. But worth noting, volufiline does what it promises.