I've been thinking a lot about dysphoria, what it is to be transsexual woman... I'm starting to use that old term because I'm literally transitioning my sex by all means there is. I'm 99% certainly intersex, I'm already more a woman than a typical XY male anyway. Its nothing but fixing natures error, helping it along where my natural functions lacked.
I have been fed so many lies. Social construct my ass! Maybe gender roles and expressions are, but my SEX is not social, it is biological and physical fact. Having to just fix my body to fully correspond what and who I am is all I'm doing. There's nothing social make believe bullshit about this. Its a physical problem with a medical solution. It is biology at work, being aided by all known means of modern medicine from HRT to NBE to surgery. And that's it. This is how simple it all is!
I've been lied to, I've been told that gender is some mythical weird af malleable concept, that its complex. No, its not. It is very simple. My gender is female, my sex is intersex and its becoming female too. Hormonally it already is, anatomically it almost is. That's it. No bullshit, no make believe social construct crap, no fetish stuff, This is about biology, fixing a birth defect. My dysphoria has always been quite simple to explain, its about 30% about body proportions and shapes, 30% genitals, 20% social, 10% facial features and minor details and 10% voice. My personality and "soul" if you will has always been fully female, my thinking is what a typical woman is like. My first puberty was partially female and some male aspects never showed up, I'm picking up the pace and making my body fully a woman like it should have been in the first place. I will never be a cis woman, but close enough. In the end I'm not much different than any woman who has hormonal problem requiring HRT and lack a functional womb.
The lies I was told have done damage. I was told "you don't need this/that/blabla operation". I was told to self accept, to become content. I was told to get therapy, to do internal work. Everything but to actually fix my physical issue by medical means. Those were all lies! They're a side show, little tools to cope, but they will never ever fix these problems, only HRT and surgeries will! I can't understand why we're being lied to so much when solutions to sex/gender dysphoria are so obvious, blatantly in our face right there. Fix the body, fix the mind.
So much for "you don't need that" or "don't try, you're setting yourself up for a failure" etc. I have heard these things so many times and they're all stupid lies. I'm doing this, all the way, and now I know I'm doing the right thing. Also, I will be advocating for plastic surgery from now on for fixing dysphoria issues. Its nothing short of magical, I have zero regrets. If I could, I would do the rest of this operation right now, I wouldn't hesitate for a minute. I've never felt this happy in my body before, its pure bliss to just exist. And this is nothing but a start, a little taste of what is to come. If this is the way it goes, I will be cured! My dysphoria will be cured! I will become healthy, normal, I don't need to be in pain forever.
I have been fed so many lies. Social construct my ass! Maybe gender roles and expressions are, but my SEX is not social, it is biological and physical fact. Having to just fix my body to fully correspond what and who I am is all I'm doing. There's nothing social make believe bullshit about this. Its a physical problem with a medical solution. It is biology at work, being aided by all known means of modern medicine from HRT to NBE to surgery. And that's it. This is how simple it all is!
I've been lied to, I've been told that gender is some mythical weird af malleable concept, that its complex. No, its not. It is very simple. My gender is female, my sex is intersex and its becoming female too. Hormonally it already is, anatomically it almost is. That's it. No bullshit, no make believe social construct crap, no fetish stuff, This is about biology, fixing a birth defect. My dysphoria has always been quite simple to explain, its about 30% about body proportions and shapes, 30% genitals, 20% social, 10% facial features and minor details and 10% voice. My personality and "soul" if you will has always been fully female, my thinking is what a typical woman is like. My first puberty was partially female and some male aspects never showed up, I'm picking up the pace and making my body fully a woman like it should have been in the first place. I will never be a cis woman, but close enough. In the end I'm not much different than any woman who has hormonal problem requiring HRT and lack a functional womb.
The lies I was told have done damage. I was told "you don't need this/that/blabla operation". I was told to self accept, to become content. I was told to get therapy, to do internal work. Everything but to actually fix my physical issue by medical means. Those were all lies! They're a side show, little tools to cope, but they will never ever fix these problems, only HRT and surgeries will! I can't understand why we're being lied to so much when solutions to sex/gender dysphoria are so obvious, blatantly in our face right there. Fix the body, fix the mind.
So much for "you don't need that" or "don't try, you're setting yourself up for a failure" etc. I have heard these things so many times and they're all stupid lies. I'm doing this, all the way, and now I know I'm doing the right thing. Also, I will be advocating for plastic surgery from now on for fixing dysphoria issues. Its nothing short of magical, I have zero regrets. If I could, I would do the rest of this operation right now, I wouldn't hesitate for a minute. I've never felt this happy in my body before, its pure bliss to just exist. And this is nothing but a start, a little taste of what is to come. If this is the way it goes, I will be cured! My dysphoria will be cured! I will become healthy, normal, I don't need to be in pain forever.