13-01-2024, 01:15 PM
There's no way to not get discouraged when I'm compared to scarecrows, told that I look mediocre or average or "nice" or some other shit like that... When social media, picture fakery and plastic surgery has made sure that all beauty standards are so unrealistically high that there's no way to ever be perceived as anything but crappy mediocre shite no matter what I do.
I rather hide my hideous face again and not post much pictures for a while... Not that it helps anything, but maybe I can fool myself into thinking its alright. My dreams are stupid, I should stop trying to believe in them as I'm so disillusioned about all this. How in fuck do I even fix my dysphoria when I get endlessly reminded about how hideously not feminine I am? Nor pretty. I so rarely get even called those pretty words, its always something a bit like it but not what I would love to hear.
I'm really on bad mood today, I would be better off just sleeping or something.
I rather hide my hideous face again and not post much pictures for a while... Not that it helps anything, but maybe I can fool myself into thinking its alright. My dreams are stupid, I should stop trying to believe in them as I'm so disillusioned about all this. How in fuck do I even fix my dysphoria when I get endlessly reminded about how hideously not feminine I am? Nor pretty. I so rarely get even called those pretty words, its always something a bit like it but not what I would love to hear.
I'm really on bad mood today, I would be better off just sleeping or something.