24-11-2023, 07:13 PM
It was a dream... A silly distant naive dream because I grew up in a world where no "normal" person can get any work done like that... And then I met my girlfriend who's well off enough to have the chance to help me out. I never asked her to, she offered it herself. Its just too dreamy, too good to let go. I don't feel deserving at all, but I'm gonna take it. I could never pay anything like that on my own anyway.
It will be a major overhaul of body proportions and likely some minor fixes to my face. Some to fight dysphoria, some to fight aging. I'm trying to find some hope in this stupidly late transition... Maybe I can be a bit prettier with some $$$, maybe I can get back something that was stolen from me, make due for wasted years.
What I have for now is a general plan for what to get done and a consultation with the surgeon coming up next month. I'll know better after that, I'm sure he will come up with some good ideas and we get details down about it all.
I have quite nasty midlife crisis going on in a way, its bit like when I was hitting thirties but this hurts for real because I'm becoming so aware of passage of time, how my body is not reversing a day from where I'm now and how a lot of doors have closed for me. Getting some cosmetic fixes done that healthcare isn't going to cover is amazing privilege, super mega lucky. Kinda thing that never happens to me.
I hope it will make life happier and more worth living. For now I have no other purpose than transition and healing, making every day count and catching up on things I should have done ages ago.
It will be a major overhaul of body proportions and likely some minor fixes to my face. Some to fight dysphoria, some to fight aging. I'm trying to find some hope in this stupidly late transition... Maybe I can be a bit prettier with some $$$, maybe I can get back something that was stolen from me, make due for wasted years.
What I have for now is a general plan for what to get done and a consultation with the surgeon coming up next month. I'll know better after that, I'm sure he will come up with some good ideas and we get details down about it all.
I have quite nasty midlife crisis going on in a way, its bit like when I was hitting thirties but this hurts for real because I'm becoming so aware of passage of time, how my body is not reversing a day from where I'm now and how a lot of doors have closed for me. Getting some cosmetic fixes done that healthcare isn't going to cover is amazing privilege, super mega lucky. Kinda thing that never happens to me.
I hope it will make life happier and more worth living. For now I have no other purpose than transition and healing, making every day count and catching up on things I should have done ages ago.