06-11-2023, 06:52 AM
(06-11-2023, 12:49 AM)Gabrielle Wrote: I can say, i think you need some me time. Focus on you, and what makes you happy.I would, if I had the energy for much anything. I often feel stretched thin and tired, mentally exhausted... I have been cutting away things that tire me out for a reason. I knew right at the beginning that transition will take my entire focus, all my time and energy for a long time and that it will be difficult.
I also would say. Get your self involved with something. Something hooks you.
For me when i could, it was the gym. I had nero surgery and i need to lose weight, build up my strength and coordination. It became obsession. May be to fact that my endorphins where being released.
My point being, it gave me focus, enjoyment, and i felt good about my self. But i probably got a little to vain, going from a 40w to a 30w, getting toned. Yes i did put on weight over the years but this was due to the muscles i had built up.
My point being, perhaps you might want to tailor something to suit your needs. Your head and even body will thank you for it. I believe the strength of character and determination as person, who sets goals they wanted to achieve. Is already evident with you.
So get off your ass and go grab it while you can. You never when the rug will be pulled out from under you. X
I try to take walks when ever I can and weather allows. This time of year in Finland is quite horrible, it gets better when winter goes in full swing. I have had to stop so much, music stuff, exercise, almost everything. I've been thinking about starting to do art again as I have plenty of time and my girlfriend keeps asking for me to paint or draw something for her. But these artistic things need good enough mood and inspiration, if I'm tired of life and depressed, there's no way I could do any of it... For me its not that my art is created from suffering. Or often it is, but not at the moment when I suffer the most, typically after that. I have been thinking about drawing stuff about transition, symbolic things, I'm never short of ideas.
Its really good idea and its guaranteed to help too to get into a hobby or something. But you can't tell depressed person to get off your ass and expect it to happen, that's not how it works. I guess my luck is to know this state of mind quite thoroughly, I can kick myself out of it too, but first I need to rest and get some positive things to happen. Also I have untreated ADHD, that's something that adds up to burnout and chronic fatigue and exhaustion with time and mine has been there for decades now.
I take solace in knowing that all things in life are always temporary, also bad times. Other question is, what it takes to make things better. At least I know for sure that fixing my body further will help with mental health given the time as so much comes from physical short comings... A lot of which can be changed.