06-11-2023, 06:40 AM
(05-11-2023, 09:58 PM)Jennifer Wrote: Hello HelloDiDi
What happens to you?
You are very hard on yourself.
I haven't interacted with you often, but here!!
Do you think all transgender people are super beautiful?
My speech therapist told me that there are thousands of women's voices, high notes, low notes, etc.
And that we transgender people are never happy with our voice, and yet...
There are thousands, even millions, of cis gender women who must think they are ugly.
You are young, I am old in comparison (60 years old in two months) and many of us are over 60 years old.
Today I told my mother that I could never be beautiful having started transitioning too late.
No, not everyone uses programs to modify their face.
And still, very few members show their true colors.
However, do you find me ugly or beautiful.
I still have dysphoria for my passing. I am always asking my colleagues how this or that person perceived me.
The response is always the same, no adverse reaction.
I'm a woman, that's all, like you.
And in normal life outside of work, for more than 8 months, I have been a woman, that's all.
Like Liz told me, what do you see in the mirror in the morning,
I told him, a woman.
I smile to myself, and appreciate myself. you must do the same.
You are as beautiful as anything. However, you put a few too many photos of your breasts.
Me, I'm done with the race for big breasts, I'm letting the hormones do their thing.
I have two threads, one for my transition and my life as a woman, and one where you can still see my breasts.
I myself went through a bout of depression where I deleted my original thread.
I'm glad you're in Europe, too many members are in the USA.
Keep your morale up.
You are a role model for many and you have your fans.
Sois toi même et vie ta vie.
There you go, even if sometimes the translations from English to French can not say the right things, the translations from French to English can sometimes have mistakes, I hope I am correct.
We are all beautiful women.
Kisses Lara
Jennifer
Awww, thanks Jennifer.
I've been having quite depressing episode lately. Rude awakening to some things, becoming aware of even more dysphoria I ever thought I had. This isn't new, I'm heading into some life changing operations soon and almost always on brink of big changes, I start to feel horrible about myself. Yes I'm awfully harsh to myself and also a perfectionist and its really unhealthy combination. But things learned already decades ago, behaviours and upbringing, I can't just shut it all off by knowing its there, that's not how mind works.
Obviously not all trans women are mind blowingly beautiful, we're just like everybody else, most are normal, average Janes. Looks are always a bell curve and that goes with trans women also.
I know, but knowing how concerned about their looks other women are, doesn't really make my situation any better. Maybe it should warm my mind somehow, but it really does not. The pain is still here, mine I think is really nasty because its gender dysphoria mixed with low confidence and inability to perceive myself corrrectly.
Omg, this is all about myself, my perception of others isn't as messed up and you're a beautiful classy lady obviously. And what your mother said isn't true at all. I was told at the beginning of my transition that I would need a dramatic weight loss and extensive surgeries to even become passable and I reached that point around two years into my transition without weight loss or single surgery at all. Passing is not a problem to me at all. Like my girlfriends parents, they think I'm cis, they don't know. My local psych doctor realised me being transgender only from reading my file, she had zero idea and was (pleasantly) surprised reading that I'm transitioning. I don't believe age should be, or that it is, any reason to think we couldn't become passable, nor pretty. Its not about age as women of all ages do it all the time. I refuse to believe into the silly beauty propganda that its somehow reserved for youth only... Many people see it like that but I don't want to believe into such bullshit! I've seen a lot of women older than thirty and forty and fifty who are extremely pretty.
The number of boob pictures I've been posting has a reason, I take similar/same angle and lighting pics often to keep up with development. Result is small changes between pictures so it looks "boring" as in posting same pic over and over, but those are perfect for making timelines and really showing how its changing. When I started out I decided to document this day by day and take a lot of pictures which are comparable. I've been trying to not spam as many as it can get tedious, but I take a lot of pictures. My plan is to compile really good timelines when my breasts mature enough to say that I'm post transition. I have ambitious plan to compile everything, my diaries, photos, findings about what works and what doesn't and maybe make it into an ebook one day.
Yes up here in Finland, its nice to have people from Europe in here.... Btw, I have never visited France, it would be interesting. I have friends and my brother living in Germany. Maybe one day I go visit them and take a little tour in France on the same go as its right next to Germany. Would be so much fun. Its been a while since I've travelled as money has been tight.