05-11-2023, 05:56 PM
I'm really close considering deletion of all online accounts I have, all pictures I have ever posted, everything.... Or just letting it all go and not bothering at all. Everything feels so useless, I'm chronically online, I have very little real life, very little positive experience as friends are gone, I can't be with gf all the time and I'm fucking depressed. I wish I could just go into a hibernation and wake up with a new body which would make me pretty and accepted, a body in which I wouldn't need to suffer from dysphoria and endless inferiority towards almost all women.
I'm likely just too lazy to delete everything and stop posting and stop talking to anybody as then I would need to make everything again later. I might just shut up and stop posting anything at all. Everything feels so useless. I'm worthless shitty nobody. Only fools hope on the coming operations keeps me going right now. Last winter I remember thinking that I wont survive another winter that depressing and this one feels like its going to be worse before it even really begins.
Vanitas vanitatum.
I'm likely just too lazy to delete everything and stop posting and stop talking to anybody as then I would need to make everything again later. I might just shut up and stop posting anything at all. Everything feels so useless. I'm worthless shitty nobody. Only fools hope on the coming operations keeps me going right now. Last winter I remember thinking that I wont survive another winter that depressing and this one feels like its going to be worse before it even really begins.
Vanitas vanitatum.