I'm not going to post pictures for a while. And I will likely not post pics of my face again at all. I'm not getting the validation and love I would wish I had... No one tells me I'm beautiful, pretty, passable, gorgeous... Its never these things, its always something about some other single feature or get downgraded to just boobs and hips.
I get it, I look like shit. Why would anybody lie and tell me I'm actually beautiful when I know I'm not? I'm some mediocre androgynous crap apparently. I see all other women being called beautiful all around me, every day I see it all over the place, this forum included. Why am I never seen pretty or beautiful or anything like that? I never get the kind of superlative praise all otther women seem to have. All those who are conventionally attractive and fucking perfect!
Well I'm done with it. Posting selfies is useless. If the only people calling me beautiful are the ones who look at me with rose tinted glasses for having a crush on me and no one else says a thing, it tells enough. No pictures because I look like shit, I'm not feminine enough, I'm not conventionally attractive, I have ugly shovel face nordic genetics and put almost no effort in it anyway. I guess I could be pretty if its painted on and otherwise I'm worthless.
I'm having rough time even without this, better just not post anything, especially not pictures. I wish I was born right and borh with pretty facial features but I look like a fucking swamp troll.
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Or hey, maybe I'll jump onboard and do loads of makeup, filters and photoshop too? That's what everybody is doing anyway and no one can't see anything past it anyway... Being natural is ugly these days so why the fuck not be just as fake and painted on as everybody else? Maybe then I would be considered pretty too.
I get it, I look like shit. Why would anybody lie and tell me I'm actually beautiful when I know I'm not? I'm some mediocre androgynous crap apparently. I see all other women being called beautiful all around me, every day I see it all over the place, this forum included. Why am I never seen pretty or beautiful or anything like that? I never get the kind of superlative praise all otther women seem to have. All those who are conventionally attractive and fucking perfect!
Well I'm done with it. Posting selfies is useless. If the only people calling me beautiful are the ones who look at me with rose tinted glasses for having a crush on me and no one else says a thing, it tells enough. No pictures because I look like shit, I'm not feminine enough, I'm not conventionally attractive, I have ugly shovel face nordic genetics and put almost no effort in it anyway. I guess I could be pretty if its painted on and otherwise I'm worthless.
I'm having rough time even without this, better just not post anything, especially not pictures. I wish I was born right and borh with pretty facial features but I look like a fucking swamp troll.
EDIT:
Or hey, maybe I'll jump onboard and do loads of makeup, filters and photoshop too? That's what everybody is doing anyway and no one can't see anything past it anyway... Being natural is ugly these days so why the fuck not be just as fake and painted on as everybody else? Maybe then I would be considered pretty too.