Beautiful person, but a goddamn ugly shit butterface... Nice curves but too big, too masculine and too little nothing else. Beauty is not in the eye of beholder at all, its by far really universal which traits and features look pretty to most people most of the time, to few select ones its different. It doesn't warm my heart much to know that one in ten might find me "ok" or "nice" or "cute" when to the other nine out of ten I'm some mediocre piece of shite.
Everybody is just confirming my feelings on this. They keep telling me I'm either average or that they somehow say I'm not conventionally attractive. Maybe I have thought too highly of myself and should just admit that I'm crap, I don't look good, I am not beautiful. Personality matters none to how my face is. I'm not feminine enough either, disgusting androgynous ogre thanks to my genetics. None of my family ladies are much better either as I share so much with them, I'm not an outlier with looks which sucks.
I just have a little girls silly naive dream of becoming beautiful one day. But I can't. I'm too far gone and too unlucky on that. I'm worthless and should posting anything at all. Beautiful something else than my body actually being that will never make up for what I'm lacking anyway.
Everybody is just confirming my feelings on this. They keep telling me I'm either average or that they somehow say I'm not conventionally attractive. Maybe I have thought too highly of myself and should just admit that I'm crap, I don't look good, I am not beautiful. Personality matters none to how my face is. I'm not feminine enough either, disgusting androgynous ogre thanks to my genetics. None of my family ladies are much better either as I share so much with them, I'm not an outlier with looks which sucks.
I just have a little girls silly naive dream of becoming beautiful one day. But I can't. I'm too far gone and too unlucky on that. I'm worthless and should posting anything at all. Beautiful something else than my body actually being that will never make up for what I'm lacking anyway.