21-10-2022, 10:34 AM
(21-10-2022, 10:27 AM)myboobs Wrote: I hear your frustrations . Are they not those demons created by yourself ?What? Don't tell me you're saying that my dysphoria is my own doing?! Please don't ever do that. Its not a choice. No one wants to have gender/body dysphoria, believe me, take my word for it.
why go by what others judge it as standard of beauty ? Or even shape or size ?
I run a shop and I see all sizes of women, pretty to average and all are cheerful when I talk to them .
i also have 4 trans customers and one of them worked for me for short while .
I believe me when I say this , you fit perfectly in women category going by your pics .
all male related issues will get solved eventually. There is no deadline for you to meet .
that is why I say to remain positive and look not to others for approval.
if you are positive within people respond positively .
I gave up nbe due to old age related issues .
I accepted that and remain content with what I have . Means not that I go
green at gills to see development like your .
I have internalised a whole lot of those shitty fascist standards and I see people around me believing into that garbage all the time. I keep seeing it being pushed all the time, by the ones who fit into all that. Its everywhere and it hurts me. My mind overthinks and over analyzes everything. I do not fit in.
Of course I look for approval from others because I can not see myself like I am. I don't see my body the way others do, I'm blind to it, I must ask others because I cannot form a realistic picture of how I am like for real. Its crazy how this works. Dysphoria and dysmorphia have no ON/OFF button. Its so stupid, no amount of positive thinking alone fixes me. I try to stay positive, I try to feel confident... Its just insanely difficult and I always get misunderstood about all this. I can't become content before everything is said and done... I can't, my dysphoria doesn't give rats ass about what kind of internal work I do. So far the only thing that has been helping is fixing my body.