22-07-2021, 07:19 AM
(21-07-2021, 09:15 PM)Happyme Wrote: Didi
Think ahead to the near future, when your no long trans, but a woman.
all of this and probably us will be a part of a foggy dream, as you enjoy your new life as the woman you deserve to be.
Bobbi
Awww, you're a sweetheart. <3
Yea, a girl can dream... I dunno how far I need to go for this mental torturous BS to end, but I presume its about knowing the pace and the goal of the treatments, getting on a decent meds and having enough time to deprogram the mess inside my head. I mean I got a lot of internal conflict going on. There's all the scattered remnants of the 'guy' I use to role play and then there's the emerging woman going barely into her puberty and finally being let loose to reign over everything else. (Funny to speak about myself in third person.) Anyway, lot of learning and self reflection is needed before I make it out of this dark night of the soul...
But at least this morning I'm feeling way better than yesterday. I didn't sleep too long for once and I'm feeling way more energetic and not THAT pissed off as in last few days. Interestingly enough btw, I picked up my MSM yesterday, did a double dose to pick up the pace and now I'm feeling much better. I have been on MSM for such a long time I wonder if there was an imbalance of some kind when I was five days off of it. It does deal with HGH levels and what else... I wouldn't be surprised as I seem to have some sort of sensitivity to a lot of stuff. Anyway, today started much better.
I think I'm confident enough to post some pictures. These are from few days ago. I had worn supple nips that day so I think there's some swelling going on, any visible real progress... You decide. Measuring tape claims so.