[HelloDiDi]

I'm feeling great today, valid and loved by both loved ones and strangers and I want to vent it out for all of you as a little inspiration. <3

1. I have never found new cool friends so easy before. I have had difficulties fitting in, school, work place, you name it. There two groups of people among who I feel I've found my tribe, my people, my family and those are the underground metal scene and LGBTQ scene. Its so easy to make friends now as all MtF transwomen out there share my struggle, we're all under the same banner more or less. <3
   
2. I feel free to be me. I am me and I am genuine, I don't need to play a role or make up a facade, the mask of a man is off both online and irl. I have outed myself to nearly everyone in my life and its liberating. My self expression has no boundaries any more.
   
3. I can finally do everything in my power to look pretty. I can wear anything, do makeup, pick any jewelry I wish, any shoes I might like, I can choose between a backpack and purse, I can go out casual, as rock chick, goth, hippie, forest troll, pink rainbow farting unicorn, what ever I wish and its all valid and ok.
   
4. I can openly love all things girly in the world. No cute thing out there is safe from my love! I can love flowers, gardening, kitty cats and dog puppies, everything kawaii, corsets, rainy days, sunshine, pink and purple stuff, rainbow cookies, birds, gem stones, seashells and what ever cute stuff is out there and no one can't tell me its not my thing.
   
5. I can spam hearts and stupid smileys until it breaks the internet.
   
6. I can cry about anything I ever wish. Anyone who tells me to man up may fuck off!
   
7. There's nothing odd about a lady painting her nails. Yes, I love painted nails.
   
8. I can ask guys to protect me if I feel threatened. Yep, I'm no sissy and I'm quite strong for a girl, but heck how validating this is, already happened once and this cishet dude friend of mine turned out to be a true gentleman! He has defended me once before even without asking, if I would be looking for a boyfriend or husband, this guy would be a prime candidate, chivalry still exists in the world. <3
   
9. I have never felt this much at home in my own body. I'm yet to even go on a proper hrt and my body changes, specially the mental effect has been immense! My body feels more like my home each passing day.(I love that pun. xD lol.)
   
10. I have breasts, real deal, naturally grown female breasts. Is there anything better out there? I love them and they're not even matured yet.
    
11. My loved ones have shown their true colors and I feel much more loved than ever before, their support and acceptance and unconditional love has taken me by surprise. They make me feel special and important and loved. I have such fantastic family and friends I didn't even imagine.
    
12. I have never been complimented this much for my looks by strangers. You all awesome people of the internet! I love you all!!!! Its amazing! I never knew I could be beautiful in eyes of so many people, and I don't like to brag, its been humbling and I don't know what to do with all those compliments and nice words, I'm not used to this.
    
13. I have found so much support and similar fates, if something out there keeps me afloat in the madness if life, its YOU, yes, YOU who are reading this list right now. <3 As thirteen is one of my lucky numbers, I will end this list here although I could make it far longer.
    
14. Ok one more, I have found a place for me in the world, I never knew I could be happy like this. Even though there is an ongoing struggle with old and new demons, I regret nothing except for not doing this earlier. Never give up, follow your heart, do the right thing, that's what I believe in.