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Good evaluation of the daily PG cream period, it does make ton of sense.
I'm not sure if 20000mg of Reishi is too much or not (considering you are using an extract) as i remember someone mentioning the absorption is capped at 10000mg (but i'm not sure who said it, so take it with a grain of salt). But needless to say, i'm very curious what you will say about this other experiment.
I feel sorry to hear about your ups and downs Larissa, you definetly react way more to supplements and herbals emotionally than i do. I can say that since i started again on following the program strictly this friday i've been feeling a little better and slightly more calm but it could be just some satisfaction and excitement for the program in general rather than an effect of what i am taking. Unfortunately, my experience can't help you very much because all the emotional side of NBE is overshadowed by my anxiety problems and the antidepressants i am taking, so i can only give a feedback on the physical side.
That said, the appointment in the 10 June is only 9 days away so hang in there! Just remember to keep time for yourself and to destress everyday. You are definetly going through a lot and deserve lots of attention and love.
Very glad to hear you and your gf finally have found a place together, i know you are very stressed right now and that moving will take a LOT of energies BUT remember: once you get in your new  house you will not be alone (literally) and will get more help with your GF.

Don't worry about pictures, they can definetly wait, the important is taking care of yourself.
You got this! 

Yea, I remember reading this too about reishi, but as extracts seem to often be less effective than it says on the tin, I want to do a little experiment for few weeks, long enough to see if it makes a difference. Yes, I'm crazy, but I want to find out.

I seem to get a lot of emotional roller coaster when ever something changes. Interesting thing is that when I started reishi, my over all mood became soon much more stable with less extremes after a while. When I was on PM only, I got such a mess going on with seemingly never staying stable for more than few days at a time. And the mess happens every time I change something without a long slow upping or reducing the doses. I'm quite confident my mood will significantly improve when I get on hrt.

I think I'm quite good at gauging my emotional state as a 'fly on the wall' as I'm highly analytical about my own behavior and extremely self aware. That's all thanks to traumatic childhood(bullying) which taught me to both analyze others and myself all the time, some times to the point of ridiculous. This is a blessing and a curse at the same time, easy to tell what mental changes are clearly hormonal, but then it makes me overthink a lot which can be a total pain in the ass. I want to be in peace while my mind doesn't let me. Guess why I love to meditate? Speaking of which, I should do that more often, transition has whacked my zen big time.

Moving to the new house is really something. Once that is done, I'm hopefully going to have the rest of the summer quite peaceful time to deal with my own stuff. I better get that time made up somehow or I'll just explode at some point. Getting the process started at the transclinic will clear a lot of things up, I'm sure of that. If I have too tough time to cope, I can always contact them and ask to get on a sick leave which they will without a doubt arrange if I need it.