[HelloDiDi]

I certainly feel much the same way as you DiDi.

It's very nice to start being able to, for me, not feel so stressed and tense and awful. Just over all like I personally didn't care much about myself or for myself since I wasn't who I wanted to be. Once I was able to start PM and then eventually E2 however things have only improved. And like you I've always wanted to be cute too but growing up as I did never really allowed for me to express that so I had to hide it away and think of that side of myself as wrong for many years.

Now that I'm older and I finally accepted what I really wanted I'm much happier. It was a very liberating sensation to say the least, even if I'm still so very restrained by family at the moment, which means I can't yet dive into the fashion and hair removal and other aspects like I'd of wanted. Even so, just doing something, making progress towards my end goals, feeling softer, looking a bit younger, all that good stuff, has helped me a ton. I hope it will continue to help you too!

You really are looking like you're making massive strides in the right direction. The smoothness and shine of you skin in your more recent pictures makes me very jealous. Keep on going strong~

Talk about stressed.... Specially when I was younger. I have had countless problems with all sorts of things, talking about it all would make this post twice as long. And then this weird feeling of longing, that of something missing and not being right all my life. It sounds really cheesy, but once I woke up to what's been wrong with my life, nothing has been the same. Since starting the herbs, even more so. It appears that my body craves it, as I'm meant this way.

What you talk about wanting to be cute but not really allowed to, as if you're talking with my mouth. The exception for me (I guess?) was that when I was kid, my mother did not limit on what I could play and what not... Which meant that I was free to be girly and play girls stuff, which I did along with all the boys games. I did both, but I specially loved the girly stuff. That I think was invaluable experience, also later on I was free to wear almost what I wanted, playing drums and listening to heavy metal gave me the perfect excuse to keep my hair long. And how I adored it. I really love my hair, I pray to my gods every day I  wouldn't loose it.

I'm in a sort of a happy place with this. I can be myself at home all the time, the only hindrance being family and some friends who are not in the know just yet. (For a good reason too.)

Thanks. <3 Such beautiful words again. Warms my heart.