[HelloDiDi]

Well you wouldn't want me though I'm in the same time zone and just a few hours drive away.
I live in the Luneburg Heath so not that far, just a bit of a long drive to go for a drink.
Maybe I will invite you to my next art exhibition????
But, am not that good at that either Suppose I would be better if I were to do abstract BS but cannot stop myself from painting landscapes that look like real places. Though ashamed to say I did do that and they sold instantly but were absolutely rubbish pictures if I could call them that. But yeah, were Europeans

I could say the same about my art too, excluding having a change to put it out there or ever selling a piece. (The times someone has paid for it I can count very quickly...) I should link something some time, my next art project is covers for our bands new album. Oh and I would totally come to see your exhibition if I happened to be somewhere near enough.

Last night I ended up staying awake far longer than I wanted to, but I had to have a serious discussion with my gf. I had to tell her that I might want to go much further with "fixing" my by now obvious gender issue than I've previously thought. I didn't need to say much until she said it might be good idea to get my sperm count checked, find out how expensive it is to freeze some and go for it so there's at least this thing backed up. Honestly I think it would be great, then I could perhaps explore a bit more freely and not feel constantly scared about frying my nuts on the side... I mean what else can I expect to happen, I ain't no scientist or a doctor, I might very well already be boiling eggs so to speak. Besides I have a reason so suspect my fertility for other reasons, I just haven't ever got this checked.

Right now the point is that I will keep going as I am, it feels right and I'm enjoying it mostly, not not do anything would probably just lead to more anxiety and frustration and the news is, I'm starting to accept the idea that I might end up transitioning at some point... I just can't tell yet, heck I barely know what I'm going to do day after tomorrow. Self search continues.