[catbeginner]

This is a long post, its more about just putting my thoughts down without the need to discuss, but if there's something to say, say it.

I want to vent a bit about alastonsuomi.com (Naked Finland, the Finnish style old school site, bit like fetlife but not as modern.) Since I started NBE and I keep posting pics and stuff on that site, the attention I get there has changed dramatically.... Almost no women ever even comment on something, most gay men are also gone, but surprisingly many "straight" guys seem to like me a lot now. That site isn't great for finding friends, random sex partners yes and random people to chat with. The thing is that I'm now a weirdo even on that sites standards. I do not fit in any niche there. I'm not a typical crossdresser, I'm not all in MtF trans (They're super popular there it seems!), I'm not a gay trap type, I could never do that sort of thing... There's lot of them there too. So.

It seems that I don't fit in at all, I do get the most weird kind of "fans", 99,99999% men. I don't mind the attention, a lot of it is really flattering and ego stroking fun.  But also its difficult to find like minded people there to chat with, the CD/TV types seem to run scared when they realize I'm not getting a hard on from dressing up, the trans people run off when they realize I'm not all about going on HRT and living full on as a woman, about 99% of the women there aren't really interested about me at all, no surprises there... And then from those who are interested, only very few are the kind I like to talk with. Dirty old men who drool younger "shemale" types are often quite disgusting.

Oh and writing blogs there is useless... Most of the time its dislike fest and trolling and shitty comments if I say something. I used to, but now I prefer BN for example. Anyway, I don't really know why I still use that website, it has its sides, but most of the fun is pretty much gone. One reason I can think of still at this point and that is pure curiosity. It seems the more feminine I get, the more interesting comments I get and I thought why not keep uploading pics from time to time, see what happens. I'm a bit of an exhibitionist too, so its filling that need a bit. I have learned to love my body quite a lot, more so in the last two years as things are really going the way I feel the best with.


I'm just curious, if I end up making my dreams about my body to come true, namely a lot bigger boobs, over all more feminine look and more curves, more hourglass.... How will they perceive me then? Specially if I don't openly identify as a MtF trans person? As that would be not fitting to any mould, not any "personality type" that you bump into on that website. Being some corny unicorn who doesn't fit in isn't an easy place to be anyway.

I'm daydreaming now, but if I add plenty more inches on my body in the right places, I could imagine the attention going through the roof, both in good and bad. The AS is one of those websites that can be really fun and also nerve wreckingly frustrating... I don't know what to do with it, should I just go dormant and not post anything or keep doing what I'm doing, namely being an oddball and not fitting in, updating my progress for all the dirty old buggers to jerk off to. I dunno.

DiDi,
Don't feel all alone here. I bet that every one and mean every single person who posts here has had some variation of context of your post. Nothing happening here is of the "norm."  So enjoy the "grow".  I discovered the great feeling of nipple sensation in my late teens and longed for more sensation in my nipples for years.  Without warning I found this site and read and read the posts to discover there IS a way to grow nipples and to my amazement grow breast too. Now that I have large noticeable nipples AND have grown some boobs, I often wonder what have I done?  The answer is, exactly what I wanted to do.  No regrets.  No second guessing. My attitude is I have my view of my self and THIS website helped me get there.  I post to let others know you can grow boobs to enjoy, to fill your need, to show off, to feminize to what ever extent you want.  There will always be "haters" out there. Pay them no attention.  At the end of the day, climb into your own bed, put on something that feels great in contact with your new boobs and ENJOY your accomplishment.  You deserve it! 

Take care,
 Cat