[Drew]

I've been spending too much time on that other website I've mentioned... And its causing me to have very bad boob/nipple envy. I found this crossdresser guy who clearly is into NBE and he's got absolutely HUGE nipples. Totally feminine, just like I would like them. Afaik he's using supple nipps a lot, dunno what else though. Darn boob envy. My confidence isn't made of iron anyway and hanging out there too much ruins my mood. I tend to see too much of "have nots" when I pay attention. It would be better to concentrate on the good stuff, but can't help it really. I suck at confidence.

On the nice side, my PM order is finally moving. At least one of them is, I really don't like waiting so I got to make up something else for now. I don't feel like noogling all day, but something to kill boredom. 

I have absolutely no idea what you are talking about, don't even know what NBE is???
You sound kinda fustrated so be patient when the PM arrives.
Swallowing the first is exciting but is a long process, instant results don't happen