Ok, after eight days I dropped reishi dose to one cap per day again. I had a week of such mental mess I can't believe it. I dunno if it was just this, but I feel much better now. Something just felt off. So yea, back to usual one 500mg cap a day.

If it doesn't feel right drop it!
Advice I ignored myself to my own peril.
But you do seem to be very in tune with your body and how it reacts.

Ok, after eight days I dropped reishi dose to one cap per day again. I had a week of such mental mess I can't believe it. I dunno if it was just this, but I feel much better now. Something just felt off. So yea, back to usual one 500mg cap a day.

If it doesn't feel right drop it!
Advice I ignored myself to my own peril.
But you do seem to be very in tune with your body and how it reacts.

I try my best to listen to what my body tells me... As I just can't get blood work done just like that, how I feel is the only gauge I have. Anxiously waiting for the trans process to start so I'll get some control and help with these things.

Oh yea, I was going to post a picture update. Quite lewd as I'm wearing my corset right now. I think my boobs have grown since the last time I posted a underboob pic so here's an update. I think my nipples are finally growing. So far not much areola growth which is kinda sad. I wonder if they will stay small no matter what? Could be that I have that trait.

I would say this is my starting point before getting on HRT. I'm so eager to find out how the twins react to some real deal estradiol.

Oh my she has done it again!!
On top of beautiful breasts your have the most kissable lips I have seen in a long time.
Ah the wonders and joy of being Didi.
Love ya
Bobbi

Oh my she has done it again!!
On top of beautiful breasts your have the most kissable lips I have seen in a long time.
Ah the wonders and joy of being Didi.
Love ya
Bobbi

Awww, thank you. <3

But oh the irony of what you just said. Its not easy being me, often its the opposite. I'm barely out of the latest dysphoric rut. Today I feel much better than for a while.

How has corsets and waist training been for you so far? I only just started trying waist training with a steel bone one. I'm still getting used to it so I'm not even sure if I'm wearing it as snug as I should or not. The lacing seems like it can be real finicky at times too.

How has corsets and waist training been for you so far? I only just started trying waist training with a steel bone one. I'm still getting used to it so I'm not even sure if I'm wearing it as snug as I should or not. The lacing seems like it can be real finicky at times too.

I love the corset. ^_^ I'm definitely going to get some higher quality one when I have the money for it. But I would say its very good for the price. I think it is working, I've been taking some measurements, I can get it about an inch tighter than when I started. The size is so that there's plenty of space to go smaller so if I loose more, I wont need to buy another one right after.

For waist training, I say keep it as tight as you can handle without it becoming painful. You don't want get hurt... For casual wear and going out, have it nice and cozy. I have tried it, drinking and eating with the corset on is insane! So if I wear it for going out, then have it a bit loose while still shaping...

I'm so glad I have help with it, would be difficult to tighten it myself.

How has corsets and waist training been for you so far? I only just started trying waist training with a steel bone one. I'm still getting used to it so I'm not even sure if I'm wearing it as snug as I should or not. The lacing seems like it can be real finicky at times too.

I love the corset. ^_^ I'm definitely going to get some higher quality one when I have the money for it. But I would say its very good for the price. I think it is working, I've been taking some measurements, I can get it about an inch tighter than when I started. The size is so that there's plenty of space to go smaller so if I loose more, I wont need to buy another one right after.

For waist training, I say keep it as tight as you can handle without it becoming painful. You don't want get hurt... For casual wear and going out, have it nice and cozy. I have tried it, drinking and eating with the corset on is insane! So if I wear it for going out, then have it a bit loose while still shaping...

I'm so glad I have help with it, would be difficult to tighten it myself.

Yeah it's been pretty rough self tightening since I never feel like I can do it as tight as I want but I can't really ask for help so I make due. It does feel nice after a while. The first couple days it was pretty constricting but I like it more now. It helps with my posture and other aspects too beyond the waist benefits so that's been nice and the way it shapes it's amazing. So nice to see the curvy figure~ I made sure to get one that was in my size but am a little worried with me losing another ten or twenty pounds if I'll have to get another one or if mine will still be fine.

I'm feeling great today, valid and loved by both loved ones and strangers and I want to vent it out for all of you as a little inspiration. <3

1. I have never found new cool friends so easy before. I have had difficulties fitting in, school, work place, you name it. There two groups of people among who I feel I've found my tribe, my people, my family and those are the underground metal scene and LGBTQ scene. Its so easy to make friends now as all MtF transwomen out there share my struggle, we're all under the same banner more or less. <3
   
2. I feel free to be me. I am me and I am genuine, I don't need to play a role or make up a facade, the mask of a man is off both online and irl. I have outed myself to nearly everyone in my life and its liberating. My self expression has no boundaries any more.
   
3. I can finally do everything in my power to look pretty. I can wear anything, do makeup, pick any jewelry I wish, any shoes I might like, I can choose between a backpack and purse, I can go out casual, as rock chick, goth, hippie, forest troll, pink rainbow farting unicorn, what ever I wish and its all valid and ok.
   
4. I can openly love all things girly in the world. No cute thing out there is safe from my love! I can love flowers, gardening, kitty cats and dog puppies, everything kawaii, corsets, rainy days, sunshine, pink and purple stuff, rainbow cookies, birds, gem stones, seashells and what ever cute stuff is out there and no one can't tell me its not my thing.
   
5. I can spam hearts and stupid smileys until it breaks the internet.
   
6. I can cry about anything I ever wish. Anyone who tells me to man up may fuck off!
   
7. There's nothing odd about a lady painting her nails. Yes, I love painted nails.
   
8. I can ask guys to protect me if I feel threatened. Yep, I'm no sissy and I'm quite strong for a girl, but heck how validating this is, already happened once and this cishet dude friend of mine turned out to be a true gentleman! He has defended me once before even without asking, if I would be looking for a boyfriend or husband, this guy would be a prime candidate, chivalry still exists in the world. <3
   
9. I have never felt this much at home in my own body. I'm yet to even go on a proper hrt and my body changes, specially the mental effect has been immense! My body feels more like my home each passing day.(I love that pun. xD lol.)
   
10. I have breasts, real deal, naturally grown female breasts. Is there anything better out there? I love them and they're not even matured yet.
    
11. My loved ones have shown their true colors and I feel much more loved than ever before, their support and acceptance and unconditional love has taken me by surprise. They make me feel special and important and loved. I have such fantastic family and friends I didn't even imagine.
    
12. I have never been complimented this much for my looks by strangers. You all awesome people of the internet! I love you all!!!! Its amazing! I never knew I could be beautiful in eyes of so many people, and I don't like to brag, its been humbling and I don't know what to do with all those compliments and nice words, I'm not used to this.
    
13. I have found so much support and similar fates, if something out there keeps me afloat in the madness if life, its YOU, yes, YOU who are reading this list right now. <3 As thirteen is one of my lucky numbers, I will end this list here although I could make it far longer.
    
14. Ok one more, I have found a place for me in the world, I never knew I could be happy like this. Even though there is an ongoing struggle with old and new demons, I regret nothing except for not doing this earlier. Never give up, follow your heart, do the right thing, that's what I believe in.
    

Very proud of you and all the road you have made to get here.
It is so nice to see you happy and finally recollecting all the pieces that it feels surreal to read all this, like i didn't know things could get in such positive way for someone, especially during this period where everyday there is bad news from the world.

For real, i am not sure how to express how delightful was to read this and imagine a complete new person finally being free from their chains of the past (well maybe not completely, but you are fighting hard for getting there!).

Best wishes and congratulations, because you deserve all these good things. Rainbow farting Unicorn 

Very proud of you and all the road you have made to get here.
It is so nice to see you happy and finally recollecting all the pieces that it feels surreal to read all this, like i didn't know things could get in such positive way for someone, especially during this period where everyday there is bad news from the world.

For real, i am not sure how to express how delightful was to read this and imagine a complete new person finally being free from their chains of the past (well maybe not completely, but you are fighting hard for getting there!).

Best wishes and congratulations, because you deserve all these good things. Rainbow farting Unicorn 

Just a burst of happiness and joy of being me for once. Its a rare treat as I've spent most of my life being a miserable black mass of sadness instead. But to hell with that bs, enough is enough. The thing is that the little silly girl in me is rarely sad, but its been all just about letting her go wild. <3

Definitely its not just rosy and highlights and awesomeness. The reality of life hits me in the face very day. But on days like this its sunshine and dancing around being naive and joyful. Btw, my given name comes from the latin name Hilarius which means joyful. So yea. I guess Larissa is just a hilarious female version of that. xD hahahah.

I hope I can go on hrt soon, then I'll also whack two more demons in the head with a big magic titty... Their names are Depression and Dysphoria, they're siblings btw, they often hang out about the second circle.