[wee2er]

I just realized how much girls plucking their eyebrows made such a difference in the overall shape of the face.

Aboslutely gorgeous DiDi! Your girlfriend made a great job, you really look like another person now  " alt="" title="">

Feels nice to learn something new, maybe it was kind of basic, but it blew my mind to watch these photos, really!

Oh yea, its quite amazing, it can totally soften the edges a lot.... I was once again quite surprised to see the difference. Mind blown pretty much. If the ladies at work wont notice this, I'm even more amazed. (They already noticed my nails.) Not basic, first time ever that someone did my brows like that. Took me by surprise too.

You are looking lovely, keep those brows plucked and those nails painted, the women at work will be sure to notice. Women are very observant when it comes to things like this. Although I don't generally do my brows my nails are mostly always one colour or another and I get loads of compliments about them, all from women!
Go DiDI go, you are stunning 

[Heaven's Night]

I just realized how much girls plucking their eyebrows made such a difference in the overall shape of the face.

Aboslutely gorgeous DiDi! Your girlfriend made a great job, you really look like another person now  " alt="" title="">

Feels nice to learn something new, maybe it was kind of basic, but it blew my mind to watch these photos, really!

Oh yea, its quite amazing, it can totally soften the edges a lot.... I was once again quite surprised to see the difference. Mind blown pretty much. If the ladies at work wont notice this, I'm even more amazed. (They already noticed my nails.) Not basic, first time ever that someone did my brows like that. Took me by surprise too.

You are looking lovely, keep those brows plucked and those nails painted, the women at work will be sure to notice. Women are very observant when it comes to things like this. Although I don't generally do my brows my nails are mostly always one colour or another and I get loads of compliments about them, all from women!
Go DiDI go, you are stunning 

So far today, no comments yet but some interested looks unless I'm badly mistaken.... (Which I think I'm not as this is what Finns do when curious, they take time to gather courage to talk or just keep eternally silent and then gossip.) 99% of women have quite high perception on this, can't wait for a good chance to see if something fun happens. Oh and you bet I will, I'm loving it, makes me feel pretty. Interesting what a confidence boost little things can be.

Oh another cool thing happened yesterday, my gf promised her best friend we will help them move in, not for from my place... And she told them not to be too surprised for me to show up there dressed up because I'm trans. Makes it so easy, now I don't need to explain anything and can go there as me. I would have done it anyway, its so easy with new people as they don't have expectations... But that completely melted my heart. And her friends were cool with it. Fun weekend ahead.

[Heaven's Night]

These emotional ups and downs, euphoria followed by the fall, feelings of success, followed by feeling inferior, seeing grass greener on the other side of the fence. Its painful some times. And the cycle repeats. I think once again I'm doubting myself, my possibilities for making dreams come true. And its often false, just in my mind and nowhere else...

I wonder how to keep my spirits up while doing this? Seems impossible to just stay positive, every time I feel so great about something, there comes the fall and rock bottom where I feel as if I'm running, but not moving forward. When I say that these things are not for the faint of heart, this is exactly what I mean by it.  Its a marathon and not a sprint they said. And yet, I've been rather quick. I just began, then why do I feel as if I'm late and should hurry? I'm not even old yet. There's plenty of people who went in much later and made nothing short of miracles to their lives.

This gender bending mind fuck of a mess is truly something to struggle with. At the same time its soothing and fun, brings in excitement and joy, but the other side of the coin is feeling disappointed, some times envious. Looking at my body and seeing shortcomings and lacking instead of success and beauty. Yet all beauty disappears, nothing lasts forever no matter what... More happens in the mind than in the flesh, its either peace or frustration and often the two together. Why does the crude matter of the meat space suit mean so much when happiness cannot be gauged with a measuring tape? Some times I feel like I'm being materialistic and shallow, which isn't really me at all.

But what is truly empowering is to understand that I am the grand architect, the creator and the goddess of my life with endless opportunities to search for happiness. And in the end, happiness is all that matters.

[Drew]

These emotional ups and downs, euphoria followed by the fall, feelings of success, followed by feeling inferior, seeing grass greener on the other side of the fence. Its painful some times. And the cycle repeats. I think once again I'm doubting myself, my possibilities for making dreams come true. And its often false, just in my mind and nowhere else...

I wonder how to keep my spirits up while doing this? Seems impossible to just stay positive, every time I feel so great about something, there comes the fall and rock bottom where I feel as if I'm running, but not moving forward. When I say that these things are not for the faint of heart, this is exactly what I mean by it.  Its a marathon and not a sprint they said. And yet, I've been rather quick. I just began, then why do I feel as if I'm late and should hurry? I'm not even old yet. There's plenty of people who went in much later and made nothing short of miracles to their lives.

This gender bending mind fuck of a mess is truly something to struggle with. At the same time its soothing and fun, brings in excitement and joy, but the other side of the coin is feeling disappointed, some times envious. Looking at my body and seeing shortcomings and lacking instead of success and beauty. Yet all beauty disappears, nothing lasts forever no matter what... More happens in the mind than in the flesh, its either peace or frustration and often the two together. Why does the crude matter of the meat space suit mean so much when happiness cannot be gauged with a measuring tape? Some times I feel like I'm being materialistic and shallow, which isn't really me at all.

But what is truly empowering is to understand that I am the grand architect, the creator and the goddess of my life with endless opportunities to search for happiness. And in the end, happiness is all that matters.

No true beauty never dissappear's and if it's inside you and you keep that fire alight it will be with you and others for eternity. Just sometimes hard to show that, to open and reveal for fear of becoming too vulnerable.
Don't compare yourself to others, they have what they have and are most likely ungrateful for what life has given them, all that matters is you.

[Happyme]

These emotional ups and downs, euphoria followed by the fall, feelings of success, followed by feeling inferior, seeing grass greener on the other side of the fence. Its painful some times. And the cycle repeats. I think once again I'm doubting myself, my possibilities for making dreams come true. And its often false, just in my mind and nowhere else...

I wonder how to keep my spirits up while doing this? Seems impossible to just stay positive, every time I feel so great about something, there comes the fall and rock bottom where I feel as if I'm running, but not moving forward. When I say that these things are not for the faint of heart, this is exactly what I mean by it.  Its a marathon and not a sprint they said. And yet, I've been rather quick. I just began, then why do I feel as if I'm late and should hurry? I'm not even old yet. There's plenty of people who went in much later and made nothing short of miracles to their lives.

This gender bending mind fuck of a mess is truly something to struggle with. At the same time its soothing and fun, brings in excitement and joy, but the other side of the coin is feeling disappointed, some times envious. Looking at my body and seeing shortcomings and lacking instead of success and beauty. Yet all beauty disappears, nothing lasts forever no matter what... More happens in the mind than in the flesh, its either peace or frustration and often the two together. Why does the crude matter of the meat space suit mean so much when happiness cannot be gauged with a measuring tape? Some times I feel like I'm being materialistic and shallow, which isn't really me at all.

But what is truly empowering is to understand that I am the grand architect, the creator and the goddess of my life with endless opportunities to search for happiness. And in the end, happiness is all that matters.

No true beauty never dissappear's and if it's inside you and you keep that fire alight it will be with you and others for eternity. Just sometimes hard to show that, to open and reveal for fear of becoming too vulnerable.
Don't compare yourself to others, they have what they have and are most likely ungrateful for what life has given them, all that matters is you.

Very nice Drew!
I knew you had this great wisdom buried within you.
Thanks
Bobbi

[Heaven's Night]

Awww... Drew, that was nicely said. <3 Thank you.

I just came home from the rehearsal. Had another friend show up who I hadn't seen for a long while. Again, no reaction what so ever and I was out more dressed up than ever. Its nice what a confidence boost it is to wear something comfy and cute. Feeling much better now than in the morning.

I wanted to snap some random picture, but can't get anything nice done for some reason. Well, there's nothing new really. I'm wishing for some big time growth spurt to happen so I would have something to update about the boobies... Nothing to mention of in the last days.

[Heaven's Night]

Ohhkay, I got an update, sort of. There's pictures I have wanted to replicate for the longest time and I finally did. Note that last time I did this I had no extensions on the band and extra padding, now there's no padding and two 2" extensions to make it even possible to wear this. Also I'm not helping with my arms.... I'm bursting out of this bra.

[Heaven's Night]

Ok, now this is interesting....

I made a comparison pic with the one I re-created today. Pic on the left is from May 13th 2020, on the right, today. On the left pic I have some serious noogle swelling going on, I'm pushing my boobs with my arms, the shirt is pulled in tight so its pushing them from above and the picture angle is just right for this.

On the new pic there is no swelling from noogle, I'm not pushing them together, the shirt is just pulled up, there is no extra padding in the bra and there's two 2" extensions on the band so I can even wear the damn thing.... So what I did with all the tricks possible eleven months back, I can now with just having that same bra on.

Victory is sweet.

[Stevenator.]

What were you wearing when your friend came over? 
The leopard print and camo looks good.

[Heaven's Night]

What were you wearing when your friend came over? 
The leopard print and camo looks good.

Something practical enough to carry things around. I'm thinking just high waist jeans and a tank top... I'll definitely wear a bra, possibly the brown military boots I have. (I love those boots!) Oh and the long winter coat I haven't even shown here or anywhere for that matter... It looks great and it nice to wear, I should take a picture with that on.

Anyway, I will go out quite dressed as I for once have the best possible chance to do so and even meeting with people I've never met before. I should do little something with makeup too.... Its a great, safe chance to learn something new. I'm excited.