29-03-2016, 05:30 AM
Ladies, I decided to start a new thread out of respect not to hijack Gamers. I can understand her reason because the journey can be costly but my reasons are a bit different and I'm reaching out for some input.
Explanation:
I am 47 and come from a family with strong T but I can relate to her statement "Testosterone has long since destroyed me." (my face). I believe I have a nice body that could transition easily. I've even been complimented on my butt from both guys and girls. For reference, I posted Halloween pics last season. You can search if you want, they're still up. The problem is my face. It's not very androgynous. I mean I'm not an old ugly guy. In fact I got hit on by a very attractive 22yr old Latina I met in a club two months ago. I was flattered by the gesture but she was way too young, in addition to that I'm married. She did say I look very young for my age and had a hard time believing I have one graduating college this year.
My journey:
I have experimented with different herbal remedies for about three years now. Mostly fenugreek, saw palmetto, and red clover and had minor results. My work schedule makes it hard to stay religious about taking them so it's been off and on. I have pumped and that helped, even tried BO for a couple weeks before getting cancer. But now my health is good and I got a script for finn & spiro for hair loss. I have been doing really well about taking them and been augmenting with fenugreek. Been thinking making about jumping on to PM for some time. Just haven't made the time.
My dilemma:
My breasts are not where I would like them to be but they are taking the shape of Stefanie_s, which is very nice. I dress when I can and this weekend I was able to get a little dolled up. I wore a pair of black leggings with brown leather riding boots over white boot socks (very trendy these days). The boots had a wedge heel and the top was a nice form fitting cream-colored kitted sweater with a moderate v-neck. Showed the girls very well with a push-up bra. I have a new wig that comes down to my bra strap (center back) that is brunette with blonde highlights-love it! I have tried to put on makeup but I just plain suck at it. I need to attend a class or something on how to pick out and apply makeup. I used a hand-held mirror to see me from the back and I looked hot. But as soon as I turned around, I looked hideous. I looked like a girl with a mans face wearing a wig. We all know if you can't pass, it's pointless. And the more I thought about it and I'm thinking why am I going through all this if I'll never pass. I'll still just look like a guy with boobs because strong T has had control for too long.
Conclusion:
First of all, thanks for reading this long message. This site has inspired me for a really long time and the support I've seen is wonderful. There are many here who are my idols-Demon Lord Etna, SarahSchilling, ElainMoria, Tasha, and a few others but they're all beautiful. I will never look like that and FFS is not in the budget with another about to start college. I make just under 6 figures but have a life style that lives around that (house, car, college tuition, etc). So I'm sorry if this sounds like I'm taking pity on myself, I'm just losing hope and getting close to giving up. What do you think?
Hugs,
Erin
Explanation:
I am 47 and come from a family with strong T but I can relate to her statement "Testosterone has long since destroyed me." (my face). I believe I have a nice body that could transition easily. I've even been complimented on my butt from both guys and girls. For reference, I posted Halloween pics last season. You can search if you want, they're still up. The problem is my face. It's not very androgynous. I mean I'm not an old ugly guy. In fact I got hit on by a very attractive 22yr old Latina I met in a club two months ago. I was flattered by the gesture but she was way too young, in addition to that I'm married. She did say I look very young for my age and had a hard time believing I have one graduating college this year.
My journey:
I have experimented with different herbal remedies for about three years now. Mostly fenugreek, saw palmetto, and red clover and had minor results. My work schedule makes it hard to stay religious about taking them so it's been off and on. I have pumped and that helped, even tried BO for a couple weeks before getting cancer. But now my health is good and I got a script for finn & spiro for hair loss. I have been doing really well about taking them and been augmenting with fenugreek. Been thinking making about jumping on to PM for some time. Just haven't made the time.
My dilemma:
My breasts are not where I would like them to be but they are taking the shape of Stefanie_s, which is very nice. I dress when I can and this weekend I was able to get a little dolled up. I wore a pair of black leggings with brown leather riding boots over white boot socks (very trendy these days). The boots had a wedge heel and the top was a nice form fitting cream-colored kitted sweater with a moderate v-neck. Showed the girls very well with a push-up bra. I have a new wig that comes down to my bra strap (center back) that is brunette with blonde highlights-love it! I have tried to put on makeup but I just plain suck at it. I need to attend a class or something on how to pick out and apply makeup. I used a hand-held mirror to see me from the back and I looked hot. But as soon as I turned around, I looked hideous. I looked like a girl with a mans face wearing a wig. We all know if you can't pass, it's pointless. And the more I thought about it and I'm thinking why am I going through all this if I'll never pass. I'll still just look like a guy with boobs because strong T has had control for too long.
Conclusion:
First of all, thanks for reading this long message. This site has inspired me for a really long time and the support I've seen is wonderful. There are many here who are my idols-Demon Lord Etna, SarahSchilling, ElainMoria, Tasha, and a few others but they're all beautiful. I will never look like that and FFS is not in the budget with another about to start college. I make just under 6 figures but have a life style that lives around that (house, car, college tuition, etc). So I'm sorry if this sounds like I'm taking pity on myself, I'm just losing hope and getting close to giving up. What do you think?
Hugs,
Erin