18-06-2011, 12:26 PM
Hi all,
Gave this some thought, and I happen to have worked on it with a psychoanalyst for 10 years. When I first started growing 5 years ago the why was simple. I was out in drag every weekend, and growing my own was simpler than faking.
The question for me is why keep my breasts now? I kept my hair, my breasts, and my clothes, even when I was doing some very serious cleaning in my life. The reasons for all three are anxiety. The hair for castration anxiety, the breasts for comfort and consolation, and the clothes out of fear to let go. My therapist compared my breasts to a transitional object. She told me about one little boy who threw his bear into the doorway before he decided a house was safe to enter.
That´s why I relate many of the feelings in the above posts to the fear of the unknown. My breasts make me feel safe and confident in the face of uncertainty, and at the same time full of anticipation and wonder, and courage. I see the same feelings in many of the ladies´ posts.
Gave this some thought, and I happen to have worked on it with a psychoanalyst for 10 years. When I first started growing 5 years ago the why was simple. I was out in drag every weekend, and growing my own was simpler than faking.
The question for me is why keep my breasts now? I kept my hair, my breasts, and my clothes, even when I was doing some very serious cleaning in my life. The reasons for all three are anxiety. The hair for castration anxiety, the breasts for comfort and consolation, and the clothes out of fear to let go. My therapist compared my breasts to a transitional object. She told me about one little boy who threw his bear into the doorway before he decided a house was safe to enter.
That´s why I relate many of the feelings in the above posts to the fear of the unknown. My breasts make me feel safe and confident in the face of uncertainty, and at the same time full of anticipation and wonder, and courage. I see the same feelings in many of the ladies´ posts.