07-05-2024, 05:57 AM
Its kinda crazy that I don't fit in with any trans community either. I have no community... I relate most to the very few who are also intersex, and with some who hold old school somewhat trans medicalist type thinking with what makes us tick. Also anyone hypersexual feels repulsive to me. Transition has changed me quite a lot, I've become almost asexual and my feminine thought patterns have become way stronger than before.
This is why I have so few friends, most of those who have stuck up with me share a very similar background and worldview and so on. Interestingly, several have intersex conditions which has been crazy twist of fate that I end up befriending those whos experience with body weirdness is similar.
Just some days ago something happened with a cis female "friend" I thought was a good close friend too, I was so wrong about her. I commented a dumb meme she had posted in a sarcastic manner as it was just too stupid to ignore. She took offense and went into some weird "debate" about climate issues and trying to draw something political into it. It ended up with her going personal and insulting me, firstly she made assumptions about my political views which I've never talked with her as I normally don't want to mention any of that, then she questioned my womanhood in such arrogant and belittling way. It was blatant transphobia and some what she said seemed like internalised misogyny too. She took her sweet time to post that reply so it was thought out in a way that what ever would insult me the most... It was quite well thought out reply, how to hurt a transsex woman with something, of course, attack her likely fragile femininity as that's where she most like has insecurity. How convenient huh?
Its only making it obvious how cis gender people are VERY OFTEN transphobic while being surface level accepting, or should I say "tolerant" instead. Most people will never accept the fact that I am a woman. I wont ever be a woman to them, but some freakshow. Third sex, non binary something or what ever. And they're absolutely ready to let their trasnphobia reign the moment they feel threatened somehow as that's the easiest way to bully a trans person.
I belong nowhere, even cis women hate me. Even those who put up a years long facade of friendship. I'm not a woman to them. I think in the end I can count my true friends with my fingers and probably count them all before reaching ten.
This is why I have so few friends, most of those who have stuck up with me share a very similar background and worldview and so on. Interestingly, several have intersex conditions which has been crazy twist of fate that I end up befriending those whos experience with body weirdness is similar.
Just some days ago something happened with a cis female "friend" I thought was a good close friend too, I was so wrong about her. I commented a dumb meme she had posted in a sarcastic manner as it was just too stupid to ignore. She took offense and went into some weird "debate" about climate issues and trying to draw something political into it. It ended up with her going personal and insulting me, firstly she made assumptions about my political views which I've never talked with her as I normally don't want to mention any of that, then she questioned my womanhood in such arrogant and belittling way. It was blatant transphobia and some what she said seemed like internalised misogyny too. She took her sweet time to post that reply so it was thought out in a way that what ever would insult me the most... It was quite well thought out reply, how to hurt a transsex woman with something, of course, attack her likely fragile femininity as that's where she most like has insecurity. How convenient huh?
Its only making it obvious how cis gender people are VERY OFTEN transphobic while being surface level accepting, or should I say "tolerant" instead. Most people will never accept the fact that I am a woman. I wont ever be a woman to them, but some freakshow. Third sex, non binary something or what ever. And they're absolutely ready to let their trasnphobia reign the moment they feel threatened somehow as that's the easiest way to bully a trans person.
I belong nowhere, even cis women hate me. Even those who put up a years long facade of friendship. I'm not a woman to them. I think in the end I can count my true friends with my fingers and probably count them all before reaching ten.