[Crystal Amethyst]

I always wanted to be a girl as long as I can remember. I buried the feelings my whole life. I started to realize that I was living my life to make everyone else happy. I am not out and about as a woman, but some trusted family knows. I am still trying to figure out my transition. I remember as a child wanting breasts like the girls and grown up women. I wanted to wear bras and lingerie. I would pinch and pull my nipples hoping they would grow. As I got older and discovered crossdressing, I saw breast forms in catalogs. I was always turned off by them. They could look nice, but there is no feeling in them. I wanted my own. I would read everything that I could find about people who were having sex changes. I experimented with some herbs long ago, there was a tea you could buy called mother's milk. It had blessed thistle in it. I never had any real growth until I started reading about breast enlargement herbs. So here I am. I have let my hair grow and pierced my ears. And I have nice small boobs. And I am happy about it.

And why breasts? They are ultimate in femininity. Having them makes me feel complete. They also give me a spiritual type feeling, like being one with mother nature.