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Late last year, I purchased BO through Amazon. For years I have dreamed of having a feminine body as a male. Breasts and hips specifically. It's been an intense fantasy since I was a teen and has followed me all these years to now. When the BO finally arrived, I couldn't take any. My stomach had such a strong reaction to just knowing what I had that it made me sick. This feeling scared me, so I sent the BO back since I never opened any of the packagings.

Now BO is back in stock, and it's been in my cart for days. But I haven't bought it because even though I want it, my body seemed to reject the idea as soon as it could have been a reality. Does this mean I don't actually want this? Has anyone else felt this sudden feeling of dread before starting?

I think that most, if not all of us, experience that panic the beginning and probably many times along our journey.

I have been doing this for about 8 years and still have those points where I question whether or not to continue. Nothing seems to stop me in the end. I fooled around with herbs and stuff for years before finally screwing my courage in place and asking my doctor for estrogen - which he gave me.

I am wondering if it might work for you to try out some form of breast growth that is more mild before hitting the hard stuff like BO, PM or estrogen. There is breast pumping of course, which gives a brief increase in size to the breasts. There are OTC breast creams that may give a little growth. Fenugreek is an inexpensive herb that will give a slow increase to breast size over a period of time without other side effects.

You have wanted the feminine body for a long time but are afraid to take the plunge. I would recommend starting with smaller steps and and see how you adjust physically and mentally.

Good luck!

Joey