Thank you Happyme and grimSage for the warm and supportive replies, i appreciated every single word of you. <3
Maybe... if i managed in contacting a mental specialist without my parents knowing it, i guess i can also contact a gender therapist in the future.
Since Happyme first asked what to do with my breasts, i thought everyday about it and what could be the meaning of this whole story. It's complicated, because honestly i have no idea on what i am nor what i want for me, and still struggling with taking choices apart from my family (even with the help of a mental specialist). So yeah, maybe i'm understanding slowly i should talk with a gender therapist, but i guess i still need a little more time to think about me and what to say.
Also, how should i consider the NBE program i'm currently taking?
Again thanks everyone for giving me opinions and food for thought 
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