[grimSage]

I apologize for the late reply, i have been a little busy and stressed. I took the SAGE test the other day and got pretty scared by the result, i tried to be honest and did it slow, but i guess some questions were kinda ambiguous and the result is way over what i expected. Can i post it? I'll remove it if is against rules.

I think this escalated quickly when it asked about "males growing breasts". " alt="" title="">

In regards to seeing a gender therapist, i think that's a good idea but i'm really really scared about it. Not sure if i want first to understand more what is happening right now or if that would make me understand the whole thing better. I can't get more stress right now.. it's already a hard period and this would make things even more confused honestly.
Shirazmn said:
"Whatever you do, make sure to listen to your body and think of your family/social situation." and this is what scares me a lot, i already have diffcult relationship with my life and family and this wouldn't certainly help, especially because they aren't much the type of person to understand these kind of problems. I am secretly seeing a mental specialist for depression and anxiety problems, so idk if i can see a gender therapist in the immediate future.
Anyways, thank you again for the time and attention, i appreciate you <3

Nothing confusing about finding out who you really are <3 as helpful as strangers on the internet and self-expression (one could say a test drive of the other side) can be, a professional can answer a lot of those hard questions for you. There's inspo like a-miss-inside (tumblr) that I've followed some time, and starting with crossdressing, makeup, etc especially if you have a female friend you trust with this can be a huge help. It's what led me towards the development in the same timeframe that while I might be more andro/fluid in theory... in practice I prefer socializing and playing femme a majority of the time, its just surroundings and expectations that stopped me. just start answering "why are you wearing a GIRLS x" with.... "its MY x, isnt it?" even if you aren't fully femme you decide in the end. Ultimately...... its the kind of thing that saves stress in the long term imo.

You can also get pretty significant results and still detransition, I know at least 1 enby who's cycled both and getting all the distinct features of maleness and femininity.. our journeys are unique to us! However you choose to take it is just as valid, but if you're more questioning / curious there's no need to rush in without consulting a health/gender professional.