I apologize for the late reply, i have been a little busy and stressed. I took the SAGE test the other day and got pretty scared by the result, i tried to be honest and did it slow, but i guess some questions were kinda ambiguous and the result is way over what i expected. Can i post it? I'll remove it if is against rules.
I think this escalated quickly when it asked about "males growing breasts". 
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In regards to seeing a gender therapist, i think that's a good idea but i'm really really scared about it. Not sure if i want first to understand more what is happening right now or if that would make me understand the whole thing better. I can't get more stress right now.. it's already a hard period and this would make things even more confused honestly.
Shirazmn said:
"Whatever you do, make sure to listen to your body and think of your family/social situation." and this is what scares me a lot, i already have diffcult relationship with my life and family and this wouldn't certainly help, especially because they aren't much the type of person to understand these kind of problems. I am secretly seeing a mental specialist for depression and anxiety problems, so idk if i can see a gender therapist in the immediate future.
Anyways, thank you again for the time and attention, i appreciate you <3