[Beverley50]

Hi all,

So its 2 days since I've had a little mini-breakdown. However since seeing my first therapist for the first time yesterday I feel like a weight has come off my shoulders. The long and the short is that "it's OK to be what I am". There's apparently no real need for bloodwork at this point. She says my body will let me know if there's a problem, and have left me with the option of having it done at my local hospital.

I am glad that you are speaking to someone.  However.....  Why would you need blood work, and of course you can get it done at a hospital if you want?  Or, is there something I am not understanding like "body work"?  
I must be one of the lucky ones.  I've never thought of suicide, harming myself or others.  My dysphoria showed up like depression.  Wanting to sleep way too much, not wanting to start or finish a project and a huge feeling that something was missing or just plain wrong.  And my therapist knows that she never has to tell me not to seek medical help in my transitioning, or just plain making sure there is no medical problem.  So, I am a little lost cause I think knowing where or what your body is telling you, both physically and mentally, goes hand in hand.  If for no other reason than to help you chart your way in confidence and good health.
In any case I am very happy you are trying to get a handle on some things bothering you.

Blood work, just to get a realistic idea of where my hormone levels are. But I'm not too worried about that a.t.m. i just needed to talk to someone unbiased face to face, to vent my fears and insecurities. She has been excellent and a real pro. Obviously knows the subject very well. That's why I picked her. Physically I'm fine, mentally I needed advice, guidance and professional opinions, which she gave me. I'm not going to go on about the details on the forum. I'll keep it private. I'll be seeing her every month and we'll develop the relationship as we go along. This forum is about NBE after all.