19-02-2019, 02:01 PM
(This post was last modified: 19-02-2019, 07:52 PM by Beverley50.)
Hi all,
So its 2 days since I've had a little mini-breakdown. However since seeing my first therapist for the first time yesterday I feel like a weight has come off my shoulders. The long and the short is that "it's OK to be what I am". There's apparently no real need for bloodwork at this point. She says my body will let me know if there's a problem, and have left me with the option of having it done at my local hospital.
On a physical note, the itching of my nipples has subsided, although they are still the same size and erect, I would call them "ripe". All the other weird body sensations have also disappeared and I feel wonderful and calm today, but it could also be due to the Ativan
My butt is definitely larger. I know this now because last year October my Nike compression underwear was very comfortable and a perfect fit, but NOW they are cutting into my skin, and leave me with sore red lines when I take them off every night. They have become really uncomfortable and too small. The funny thing is that my weight is down from last October. Butt growth? It certainly feels like it, even feels different when I walk, and I can feel my butt moving all the way up my lower back. So awesome. I ask myself sometime "isn't it a placebo effect?", then I do a realistic observation and I've come to the conclusion that everything is real, the changes to my body are real. Unlike wearing breast forms, body shaping gaffes and what not for the past 25 years, this is actually REAL change, change that cannot just be removed at night and dumped into the washing bin.
I feel so much better I've updated my avatar with my most recent pic, from last night. Isn't it wonderful what a little foundation, eye liner, brows, mascara and lipstick can do.
Bev
So its 2 days since I've had a little mini-breakdown. However since seeing my first therapist for the first time yesterday I feel like a weight has come off my shoulders. The long and the short is that "it's OK to be what I am". There's apparently no real need for bloodwork at this point. She says my body will let me know if there's a problem, and have left me with the option of having it done at my local hospital.
On a physical note, the itching of my nipples has subsided, although they are still the same size and erect, I would call them "ripe". All the other weird body sensations have also disappeared and I feel wonderful and calm today, but it could also be due to the Ativan
My butt is definitely larger. I know this now because last year October my Nike compression underwear was very comfortable and a perfect fit, but NOW they are cutting into my skin, and leave me with sore red lines when I take them off every night. They have become really uncomfortable and too small. The funny thing is that my weight is down from last October. Butt growth? It certainly feels like it, even feels different when I walk, and I can feel my butt moving all the way up my lower back. So awesome. I ask myself sometime "isn't it a placebo effect?", then I do a realistic observation and I've come to the conclusion that everything is real, the changes to my body are real. Unlike wearing breast forms, body shaping gaffes and what not for the past 25 years, this is actually REAL change, change that cannot just be removed at night and dumped into the washing bin.
I feel so much better I've updated my avatar with my most recent pic, from last night. Isn't it wonderful what a little foundation, eye liner, brows, mascara and lipstick can do.
Bev