[Dianna1395]

@Dianna1395
My insurance actually covers my therapy, so I pay nothing out of pocket for that.



I spoke to my therapist today, but she's not really of much help. After every therapy session, she ends it with "Did what we talk about today seem to help" And recently we completed a "Plan of service" and she explained to me that if I don't seem like I'm making any progress, then there's no point in me being a client.

It makes me feel like she wants to get rid of me. My problems are too much even for a professional.

Hi, Gamer,
I don't think it's your issues.
It sounds like you have a person pushing an agenda. "Talk therapy" maybe, she's just trying to "yes" you to death - hence the, "do you feel better, little girl (boy)?" at the end.
Time to find a therapist and stop talking to a bureaucrat. (Not the first term that came to mind.)

I'd ask what is the "plan of service." If it's not leading to transition, she's selling you en mala fide (in bad faith - legally, voids all contracts, makes it impossible to negotiate in good faith.) Transition may not be your goal, but if the contract doesn't lead that direction, and she isn't discussing the actual treatment of the problem - only discussing how to "manage symptoms" - that's, "Hey, you've got a severed artery, let's grab a band-aid!"
She's going the wrong direction, even if you only want breasts and a beard. Because she sounds like she's focusing on the beard, first and foremost, and you've already GOT that... It's what's missing.

When they asked Michelangelo how he made his sculptures, how he could see the statue in the stone, he replied, "The statue was always there. I simply removed the stone that didn't belong." Same process, we're making a work of art, and we need to mostly remove the extras. We have the foundation, the beauty is always there, but it's actually more about removing and simplifying. Adding in hormones is sort of the hammer and chisel and files used to make the beautiful statue emerge.

Sounds like she's not on that page. Guess she's an art critic? (A critic is someone who knows the way, but cannot drive the car.)

-Dianna