[Miranda-nata-est]

Don't for a moment think girls don't struggle with the exact same thing, Miranda. Pay any attention to them, and you will see it is a major contributor to their mental processes, by and large. Guys have this problem too, they just deal with it differently and of course tend to have a different ideal that they strive towards.

This is a little bit different though. For cis females who have grown up looking over their shoulders at celeb glamour models, each one has, to some extent, recognised their place in the appearance pecking order - they may not like their place and be doing all they can to change it, but they inherently know where they currently are.

For us though, well for me anyway, we are coming into this cold without an awareness of where we are going to fit (future) in the appearance hierarchy I had never really considered how I might present appearancewise before this feature raised the issue in my mind; up to now, I have been just ploughing on through the transition process without any issues at all and hadn't really considered the final appearance outcome.

So, on being presented with examples which are just unbelievably stunning and successful, I am now reflecting on how I will be seen in the future and this has bought me up with a real jolt, Once this is all done and dusted, I really don't want to be taken as anything other than a cis female - I most certainly don't want to be seen as a man in a dress and rail against the idea of being easily spotted as a ex male in any shape or form.

However, I am having to come to terms with the fact that these ultimate goals might be out of reach and that is a hard one to deal with.

There is no way this would deter me from the path I am on, nor would it have prevented me from starting out on the journey, had I thought about it earlier - it is more about managing expectations and realising the practical limitations of the process we are undertaking.


Miranda