[Miranda-nata-est]

Thanks Clara for the pep talk, I really appreciate it.

Up to now, I have been sailing through the transition process with virtually no issues whatsoever, the whole process has just seemed to flow naturally without too much in the way of dramas or crises. This is the first real crisis and it has completely surprised and alarmed me that mentally I am far more fragile than I had realised.

I've been sort of struggling with the implications of this since the Bruce Jenner story first broke and have been trying to sort out in my head how I am going to be able to cope with a mirror image that does not meet up to my preconceived ideas of how I want to look. As I said before, I am definitely not at odds with what she is doing at all and wish her every success; what she has done though is to raise to the forefront of my mind an issue which I was always going to have to address at some stage..

It is a major, major reality check to realise that unlike the fairy story, the swan I feel inside might have to remain, at least to some degree, in the body of a duckling.

However, the piece you have just posted in your thread and mentioned above certainly does give significant hope thanks for taking the time to pen it.

I am sure this is just a blip really and the truth of the matter is that there is no going back in any case. There is no way I could ever revert to living in male mode there is just so much more to life as a girl!!!!!! (besides which my replacement credit card turned up yesterday with my new name on it - I have arrived!!).

Thank you

Miranda