[❇ Abby ❇]

I was surfing around researching the costs/implications of breast surgery. To be honest it was not a serious search, more like "double checking" before crossing off the mental list. I came to the conclusion that (for me) it was expensive and would not have solved my problems.

It was then I stumbled onto this site.

First I should give you some idea about me.
I'm 40 years old and for as long as I can remember I've had a mostly female side that I've kept hidden from my family. Sadly (without going into detail on an open forum) my circumstances have changed and soon I'll be building a new life.

Has anyone else found that under stress or emotional pain that the ability to manage your male/female sides is so much harder?

With the pain of bereavement, relationship ending and other stress that I have been dealing with this last year, I could have done without the extra emotional turmoil. It's been worse than ever before. Guilt for painting my toe nails, shaving my legs, I love heels, having female cloths, wearing female underwear, etc, etc. I worry I might get caught and the implication for the remainder of my family. Yet I can't stop. I find expressing myself (although hidden) relaxes and comforts me hugely.

My ex fiancée is the only person I've ever talked to about this and she said it was "ok". Very supportive in one way. We would talk about it for hours. Shaved legs ok, anything else and she did not want to see it.

Back to the topic. Side benefits?
Finding this site came at just the right time for me. It's not just about growing breasts. The fact I can read about your experiences, your troubles, your bravery and your triumphs. I realize I'm not alone with this and it has given me hope.

Thank you.

Denita

P.S I want my own breasts!! lol. But I have a sneaking suspicion the other benifits of feminizing will help me more.