[spanky (aka Lola)]

I wish I could remember, and that I had kept a journal. I know the spiral began with emmissions changing from milky to clear. That was , I think, toward the end of year two. Then to a gradually smaller and smaller amount, before finally reaching a dry climax. I believe that first occurred for me about mid way through year three. Maybe later. Now I have essentially no libido left. One question I have when I see the endo next week will be if this is hypothetically reversible...not that I want to or care, but just for the sake of knowing. Lord knows, in my time I bet I got several lifetimes of use out of that equipment, so I am not complaining at all.

I cannot imagine losing my libido. Did it feel like a big loss? I would much rather walk-the-wire, keep my libido and continue to enjoy sex, all while growing breasts and being more feminine. Do I ask too much? Probably so. . . .

It is a bit of a Sophie's choice, though thank god a life is not in the balance!