My first message here. Love the atmosphere and energy <3, though I haven't been lurking since a while.
(Please be aware, I'm sharing something quite personal, how PM has affected my sexuality)
So, I have been taking ainterol PM powder for about 3 and a half months. I've been taking some other stuff too and nutrients, gently massaging with certain oil mixtures, pumping. Have made some good progress with my boobs. When I started, I knew PM affects my sexuality, I knew it might shrink my prostate. Got my first proper prostate orgasms during spring and it was quite amazing, even though I am experienced with anal play. Gradually feelings and sensations relating to prostate lessened, be it direct and indirect stimulation. My sex drive is somewhat lower but it's been quite ok, most of the time at least.
After I had a proper prostate orgasm, I had this very satisfied feeling, like "I'm done <3!" I became very sensitive down there for many hours, didn't want anything in. Now my sessions end up in frustration. It still feels good or even great at times, but I never really finish (I generally avoid ejaculation) or be properly satisfied. If I put a finger on the spot, I can feel that something is physically missing. I'm surprised this development was so fast and so dramatic. My dose has been something between 900mgs + to almost 3 grams a day, bit under 2gs on average I would say. Not so much anti androgens. Peppermint tea at the beginning for a few weeks, then licorice tea for about a month, then nothing, Might buy white peony extract soon.
During the last few days I've been taking just three mini spoons a day (900+). Partly to test how permanent my gains are, also been avoiding pumping. My feelings towards the whole process vary, but mostly I want it, especially when feeling good, energetic, sensual/sexual, like more like myself, more girly.
I want breasts, to crossdress, to girlify myself (keeping my parts though and some of my masculinity), but not on the expense of my sex life and the enjoyment of it. Sex, my sexuality is a big part of why I began the whole thing. I'm afraid to take more. Maybe I will take just a little bit or just stop it and concentrate on other options and methods. Feeling like this issue in question has somewhat lessened my desire for the whole thing, me becoming more like a girl and less like a boy.
My plan was/is to take HRT for boosting, deepening the process, also for counteracting this "prostate effect", like take it for 6-12 months and then continue taking PM (not so sure anymore), but a smaller dose, more like maintenance level. Like most people here, I prefer the natural way, but bio identical estrogen, that sounds OK to me, at least for a year or so.
HRT and aging we're the only things that I found to enlarge prostate. DHT seems to be another (or not, depends), but it's quite counterproductive and I'm trying to thicken my hair, with some success already. I'm hoping that my prostate just becomes restored by itself if I just stop PM. Guessing it will, but it may take years. Will turn 35 soon.
I ended my celibacy/nofap/tantra lifestyle during November (a big revelation occured) and I was not even into this MtF stuff before that, though I was somewhat into CD years ago. Sometimes it feels like this "butt stuff" belongs into the past anyways, but I would really love to have what I had few months ago and I mostly feel like something of great value was lost. I would like to have the option. It was not an option for me for over four years, though sometimes I could not resist. Generally my sexuality, is even too tame now. HRT might not help with that, but progesterone should right?
Does someone here know if HRT might do the trick, properly enlarge/restore my prostate, preferably within 6-12+ months of taking it or is there something else which might help? It seems like finding balance in these matters can be quite a challenge, for many of us. Thank you for reading =) <3
(Please be aware, I'm sharing something quite personal, how PM has affected my sexuality)
So, I have been taking ainterol PM powder for about 3 and a half months. I've been taking some other stuff too and nutrients, gently massaging with certain oil mixtures, pumping. Have made some good progress with my boobs. When I started, I knew PM affects my sexuality, I knew it might shrink my prostate. Got my first proper prostate orgasms during spring and it was quite amazing, even though I am experienced with anal play. Gradually feelings and sensations relating to prostate lessened, be it direct and indirect stimulation. My sex drive is somewhat lower but it's been quite ok, most of the time at least.
After I had a proper prostate orgasm, I had this very satisfied feeling, like "I'm done <3!" I became very sensitive down there for many hours, didn't want anything in. Now my sessions end up in frustration. It still feels good or even great at times, but I never really finish (I generally avoid ejaculation) or be properly satisfied. If I put a finger on the spot, I can feel that something is physically missing. I'm surprised this development was so fast and so dramatic. My dose has been something between 900mgs + to almost 3 grams a day, bit under 2gs on average I would say. Not so much anti androgens. Peppermint tea at the beginning for a few weeks, then licorice tea for about a month, then nothing, Might buy white peony extract soon.
During the last few days I've been taking just three mini spoons a day (900+). Partly to test how permanent my gains are, also been avoiding pumping. My feelings towards the whole process vary, but mostly I want it, especially when feeling good, energetic, sensual/sexual, like more like myself, more girly.
I want breasts, to crossdress, to girlify myself (keeping my parts though and some of my masculinity), but not on the expense of my sex life and the enjoyment of it. Sex, my sexuality is a big part of why I began the whole thing. I'm afraid to take more. Maybe I will take just a little bit or just stop it and concentrate on other options and methods. Feeling like this issue in question has somewhat lessened my desire for the whole thing, me becoming more like a girl and less like a boy.
My plan was/is to take HRT for boosting, deepening the process, also for counteracting this "prostate effect", like take it for 6-12 months and then continue taking PM (not so sure anymore), but a smaller dose, more like maintenance level. Like most people here, I prefer the natural way, but bio identical estrogen, that sounds OK to me, at least for a year or so.
HRT and aging we're the only things that I found to enlarge prostate. DHT seems to be another (or not, depends), but it's quite counterproductive and I'm trying to thicken my hair, with some success already. I'm hoping that my prostate just becomes restored by itself if I just stop PM. Guessing it will, but it may take years. Will turn 35 soon.
I ended my celibacy/nofap/tantra lifestyle during November (a big revelation occured) and I was not even into this MtF stuff before that, though I was somewhat into CD years ago. Sometimes it feels like this "butt stuff" belongs into the past anyways, but I would really love to have what I had few months ago and I mostly feel like something of great value was lost. I would like to have the option. It was not an option for me for over four years, though sometimes I could not resist. Generally my sexuality, is even too tame now. HRT might not help with that, but progesterone should right?
Does someone here know if HRT might do the trick, properly enlarge/restore my prostate, preferably within 6-12+ months of taking it or is there something else which might help? It seems like finding balance in these matters can be quite a challenge, for many of us. Thank you for reading =) <3
I really hope I did not ruin this for the rest of my life, that I can somehow reverse what I did. 