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Seriously, though .... I started my NBE quest for bigger boobs, only. 
Silly me didn’t realize this wasn’t an ala cartel option. With boobs
came the pelvic tilt, ghetto booty, height reduction, thinner arms, 
hands, feet, legs, face, loss of strength, male function issues, female 
brain, the whole nine yards. It was an initial shock, then I learned to
embrace it. 

During my NBE, I’ve had many extended breaks. I took them to 
balance things out. I started to learn the signs of returning T. I’ve 
grown to loathe that feeling. I did a purge 3.5 weeks ago. I began 
clawing the walls last week. Yesterday I broke down and ordered 
more PM. I’m going to ‘try’ to take a lower dose for the time being. 
I’m not confident that I’ll be successful. I love the full dose too much. 

I’m probably within a few years of topping off my potential growth. 
I really do not want to miss out on any opportunities. As I was 
studying my options last week, I realized that I’m definitely going to 
need a maintenance dose when this boobie experiment is over. Not 
just to keep from losing any growth, (but as we’ve seen, they don’t 
deflate much), but as also previously noted, to maintain my new 
brain structure. After 3.5 years of rewiring my brain, I’m not ready 
to go back to the old me. No way. 

I still present as male, although I’m growing more comfortable in 
my hiking comfort kilt in public, (it’s like a tennis skirt), I have 
absolutely no wish or desire to transition. I shave my legs and I 
wear skirts, but I prefer the male role, albeit now with a female 
brain. While I’m going to try my damndest to maximize my breast 
growth, I’m in no rush whatsoever to step up to a transition dose 
of pharma hrt. 

From what I understand, stopping NBE will cause a reverse fat shift. 
It’s supposed to take as long or longer than before, but the boobs 
will remain. That much is known. I didn’t invest 3.5 years to have 
it take 4.5 years to revert to a manly man with boobs. I much much
prefer my new body now. Plus, I adore myboobs. Besides, does the 
pelvic tilt really reverse itself?? 

While I love my new skin & scent, I cringe at thinking going back 
to male skin, sweating buckets, smelling like a barn. I’ve grown to
Hate huge pores on male skin. That’s one of my favorite features. 

I’ve grown to embrace the new me. NBE has been a liberating 
experience. Even if it’s just between my ears.

I think we are on that same similar path, maybe it was less so for me when I 1st started, but the brain re-wire I sound like you a lot : When I was a teen of course I way got turned on with the female body, still dobut I also was curious about cross dressing etc even way back then. So fast forward decades and I am more so wanting to be in at least part more female and way enjoy my female clothes and looks.

And the whole smell, sweat, guy crap attitude macho crap .. no I do want to go that far back. Hard to have your cake and eat it too  right

Also a simple 40 lb dumbbell that I used to curl for reps with one hand .. ooh crap I am weak, like 25 lbs is more like it now and overhead I used to lift even a year ago up 60-70 a few reps, can even get 40 to my shoulders to do a one hand press.

Even my wrist ankles, it seems everywhere is smaller, cant all be muscle right?

From all I know T in men, and E in women is a main driver for bone size, density etc. But with what we are doing the E we now make does not work 100% the same as in a natural gender gal right?

I way need to work out again, but lite weights high reps, burn some fat and firm these thighs, but is firm, and my back  is gone, but that is OK, but you do get all that soft girl under arm and side back fat, mine is not accessive. I am lucky there so far.

But the prompt for me to talk and open up more was this seemly drastic change about 60 days ago that I thought was a growth spurt, WRONG... it it was everything. So I thought after stopping it would stall. But in the last 30 days it feels like I am still at 1000pm a day...

Oh what do do.... hugs