05-08-2019, 10:34 PM
From a couple of my other posts, you may well see that sometime ago, after a whole lot of navel gazing, I’ve kind of come around to the understanding, and accepting, that I could well be, probably am, actually transgender - at least, to some extent. I don’t have any plans, or need, to transition, which I’m fine with, but I do wonder if things were different, whether I could. I don’t know... maybe, maybe not?
Then I read a recent-ish post on here, from another member (who's name I can't remember, sorry), who did a kind-of full-time “experiment” thing, for similar reasons, I believe, or maybe part of a bigger plan. Either way, I thought was a great idea – “Damn, if only I had that kind of opportunity!” I said to myself. However, for a whole raft of the usual reasons, circumstances, location, etc., it’s not something that I can, or expect to, do.
But then, as part of a bigger trip to the US, in Dec (yes, I know, it’s still a long ways off), I’ve got a few days on my own, back in Arizona. So, I’ve decided that I’m gonna use this as my chance to go en femme, 24*7 for the 3-days/nights that I’m there; to dip my toes in the water, and maybe answer that “What if...?” question.
There’s a lot still being finalized, but I’ve booked a car and a trans friendly hotel, with some LGBTI bars/clubs that I know, relatively close by; and I’ve got a couple of local contacts who are in that scene – so I’ve got somewhere to live, somewhere to go, and possibly some company. I’m excited and nervous as hell, at the same time - but I figure it is only 3-days, and life’s too short, so why not?
I know I’m not doing anything ground breaking, earth shattering, or that hasn’t been done before. So, in the grand scheme of things, what I’m hoping to do is really nothing very special... at all.
But... to me... it is...
Of course, it’s not without risk, I understand that – and there are a whole bunch of reasons both for, and against, but I’m gonna go through with it (probably), regardless, coz who knows whether the same kind of opportunity will pop up again.
Is this really a wise decision, or am I just being delusional, or stupid? Just interested in your thoughts.
Then I read a recent-ish post on here, from another member (who's name I can't remember, sorry), who did a kind-of full-time “experiment” thing, for similar reasons, I believe, or maybe part of a bigger plan. Either way, I thought was a great idea – “Damn, if only I had that kind of opportunity!” I said to myself. However, for a whole raft of the usual reasons, circumstances, location, etc., it’s not something that I can, or expect to, do.
But then, as part of a bigger trip to the US, in Dec (yes, I know, it’s still a long ways off), I’ve got a few days on my own, back in Arizona. So, I’ve decided that I’m gonna use this as my chance to go en femme, 24*7 for the 3-days/nights that I’m there; to dip my toes in the water, and maybe answer that “What if...?” question.
There’s a lot still being finalized, but I’ve booked a car and a trans friendly hotel, with some LGBTI bars/clubs that I know, relatively close by; and I’ve got a couple of local contacts who are in that scene – so I’ve got somewhere to live, somewhere to go, and possibly some company. I’m excited and nervous as hell, at the same time - but I figure it is only 3-days, and life’s too short, so why not?
I know I’m not doing anything ground breaking, earth shattering, or that hasn’t been done before. So, in the grand scheme of things, what I’m hoping to do is really nothing very special... at all.
But... to me... it is...
Of course, it’s not without risk, I understand that – and there are a whole bunch of reasons both for, and against, but I’m gonna go through with it (probably), regardless, coz who knows whether the same kind of opportunity will pop up again.
Is this really a wise decision, or am I just being delusional, or stupid? Just interested in your thoughts.