[Allyson]

Welcome to the forum. Believe it not, your story is very similar to others here. Most of us at one time or another have tried to "Man up" for the sakes of others around us. It lasts for a while, sometimes years, until the strain becomes too much to take.

As they say, welcome home.

Thank you Janet.  I have drawn much encouragement from you journey.  I appreciate your kind words- I do feel like I am coming home.