02-01-2015, 06:14 PM
(02-01-2015, 02:30 PM)ClaraKay Wrote: For most transsexual women, passing as a woman in everyday life is so important, and for those of us who took forever to transition, quite a challenge. Successful passing means dressing and behaving like typical women of our age group. You don't want to stand out in a crowd. That doesn't mean not accentuating your best feminine features, but it does mean not drawing attention to yourself that would have people notice the remnants of masculinity that give you away. This is the biggest difference between how transwomen and cross dresser present themselves in public. A CD always has his alternate persona to fall back on when life goes back to normal everyday. The transwoman lives with her persona 24/7.
Getting dressed is the easy part pretty much aside from selecting the right fit to hide wider shoulders and narrower hips I cant imagine having a wardrobe like yours Clara, That NYE pic is about as fancy as I get, I cant do a dress or skirt in public... Id feel like Id attract too much attention from my peers and from the boys It might be different if I had the curves to wear a tight dress, I dont
At least most women my age dont dress up too much so its easy to blend in
Whats harder for me is interacting with the girls as a woman... I can go out anywhere and Im pretty confident my looks, manners and even my voice are there... Its just fascinating to be in a whole different world socially... I hardly worry about looks, manners or voice anymore, its more about fitting in socially... Women live in very different world and they arent the nice sweet innocent things they would like men to think they are... They can be very petty and in different ways than the boys there is a "pecking order"... Of course there is a male part of me thats also just blown away by their beauty as well and I feel like a fraud or imposter at times Its not so easy after a half a lifetime as a "dude" to just "be yourself" no matter how fem you might feel inside...
I can only hope that as I make more progress in time that I figure myself out there, become more comfortable and gain confidence and authenticity... Id like to not be so self aware all the time and just be me... There have been times Ive had to ask myself "did that all really happen, was that all real???" ... Thats when its all just effortless and its just me being me without thinking about it like anyone else.... Just another one of the girls