[AbiDrew85]

This is a conversation originally begun in Doll's thread, but I decided to bring it here, because it was taking up too much of her thread.

Oh wow! xD You make it seem like you have no shape at all! I mean, in that picture, I'm kinda at an angle, so I look even more shapeless than I did...but still...I had no hips...I somehow still had butt, though. Looking back on even older pictures, though, when I had even less hips than that, I also had THE smallest waist somehow (before I developed all these problems), so I guess that's what made me look like I kind of had hips. >.<

I KNOWWW! And that's EXACTLY how I've been made to feel by people in my life... Even though I ALSO get comments that I'm so lucky and so on from other people, they're people I don't really know, but then I get the crap negative ones from Mom and my older brother and...

It sucks that people are going to have that kind of attitude about that sort of thing, but it's something you're going to have to learn to deal with once you make such a big decision. My friend has been on HRT for the past two years or so, on and off (when she can afford it) and has lost many friends in the process. Not because they're not willing to still be friends with her, but because they refuse to accept her as female, and constantly refer to her as "him". And she wasn't willing to tolerate that anymore, and kicked those people out of her life. I think that's very strong of her, and it's what she needed to help herself feel better about herself. Unfortunately, her mom still has trouble accepting it, and, like you said, I just don't think she realizes what it's really doing to her when she does things like introduce her to people as "my son".

Exactly. And yeah, I've made a pretty well clean break from my old life. I can't avoid some people from then hearing about it because of my family also being friends with all the same people, but...

I don't know if the clean break is necessarily a good thing, part of me really wants to reconnect with at least some of my old friends, but another part of me is scared to death of how they'll respond. I really don't need that right now.

As for my family... I can't choose em, you know? But IF they keep this crap up though, one of these days they're going to find me gone, with my cell phone left behind, and their emails and social networking stuff blocked.

They'll only be permitted back in my life after that point if they can accept the real me. Period. I'll send select people new contact info over the snail mail and insist they keep it to themselves.

Have you really talked to them about it? I know some people will never fully understand no matter how many times you tell them, but in those situations, you still need to tell them over and over again that what they're doing is wrong, because maybe over time they'll really start to see things from your eyes.

Of course I have. And my mom had the audacity to point out that Renee Richard's sister still calls her a him and that "HE's OK with it."

My older brother just outright refuses to listen and just insists I'm cocking an attitude.

My dad is trying. Other family also vary. Only one so far has had absolutely no problems with the change whatsoever.

And just because you may not be genetically female doesn't mean you can't develop the body. Honestly, it sounds like you've got the body already, so you can only make progress from here. Yes, it will take years, but eventually your body will become more and more accustomed to "being female" with NBE (I've got the same outlook on my body LOL). Everyone comes in different shapes and sizes, so if you already have bigger hips than I did starting out, that goes to show just how female your body already is. Don't take no crap from no one!

Yeah... Easier said than done. Far easier said than done. I've said this a dozen times to myself and publicly and yet here I am, still seeing myself through a tainted lens. Other people have told me this both personally and publically, and yet here I am, still seeing myself through a tainted lens.