Okay, this thread is kind of nerve-racking for me to make for some reason, but I can't seem to help but be curious as to if there are any other women out there like me, so I thought I'd throw this out there.. and possibly hide behind the sofa for a bit.
My primary sexual fetish has been that of large breasts since I was around 10, when I was looking through a clothes catalogue and decided to cut out the pictures of women in bras and stick them to a piece of paper.
The downside to this was that I accidentally left the piece of paper in the catalogue, and only remembered it was there when my sister wanted to borrow the catalogue! My blood ran cold! A pretty aggressive of a tug-of-war between my sister (10 years older than myself) and I ensued and I was fraught with absolutely crippling embarrassment that the piece of paper would be found inside.
Despite the fact that I actually managed to successfully wrestle it off her, I think, in some sense, my attraction towards breasts became further intensified after that incident. Looking at them felt like something of a 'forbidden fruit', very naughty. The size of the breasts I fantasized about became bigger and bigger.
Not that I look up the breast sizes of the performers I like, or am fussy about particular sizes, to give you an idea, the kind of range I enjoy is anything from around a UK G cup to a J cup.
I myself am a full 32B. I can fill a C cup, but find that the larger cups can dig into my armpits.
I can't help but feel that part of my desire for large breasts stems from my fetish, and partly from the fact that my boyfriends fetish at least partially involves very large breasts. I feel like I understand the exact kind of arousal a man feels when he sees them. I feel like a man when I get off to them. I feel as though I look at women the same way a straight man would.
Despite my partners constant reassurances to me that he loves my breasts as they are, I feel pathetic that I cannot offer EITHER of us the content of both of our fantasies. I can understand that there is an unhealthy desire in me to attempt to be a 'fantasy girl', but I can't seem to shake it.
I have started to think that perhaps I would even find MYSELF physically arousing if I had the same body that I find so alluring. Perhaps myself having large breasts is a fetish in and of itself? I can't help but feel that I would feel unbearably sexual if I had breasts like the ones I fantasize about. Almost as though they would transform me.
*Phew*... I feel like I've just got a TON out of my system. 0_0 I hope this might be well-received and not seem too weird. :S
And please, if anyone is in anything resembling a similar situation to me, I'd be very happy to hear from you whether it's here or through pm.
Many, many thanks for reading if you got this far!
Yours,
- Brunella.
My primary sexual fetish has been that of large breasts since I was around 10, when I was looking through a clothes catalogue and decided to cut out the pictures of women in bras and stick them to a piece of paper.
The downside to this was that I accidentally left the piece of paper in the catalogue, and only remembered it was there when my sister wanted to borrow the catalogue! My blood ran cold! A pretty aggressive of a tug-of-war between my sister (10 years older than myself) and I ensued and I was fraught with absolutely crippling embarrassment that the piece of paper would be found inside.
Despite the fact that I actually managed to successfully wrestle it off her, I think, in some sense, my attraction towards breasts became further intensified after that incident. Looking at them felt like something of a 'forbidden fruit', very naughty. The size of the breasts I fantasized about became bigger and bigger.
Not that I look up the breast sizes of the performers I like, or am fussy about particular sizes, to give you an idea, the kind of range I enjoy is anything from around a UK G cup to a J cup.
I myself am a full 32B. I can fill a C cup, but find that the larger cups can dig into my armpits.
I can't help but feel that part of my desire for large breasts stems from my fetish, and partly from the fact that my boyfriends fetish at least partially involves very large breasts. I feel like I understand the exact kind of arousal a man feels when he sees them. I feel like a man when I get off to them. I feel as though I look at women the same way a straight man would.
Despite my partners constant reassurances to me that he loves my breasts as they are, I feel pathetic that I cannot offer EITHER of us the content of both of our fantasies. I can understand that there is an unhealthy desire in me to attempt to be a 'fantasy girl', but I can't seem to shake it.
I have started to think that perhaps I would even find MYSELF physically arousing if I had the same body that I find so alluring. Perhaps myself having large breasts is a fetish in and of itself? I can't help but feel that I would feel unbearably sexual if I had breasts like the ones I fantasize about. Almost as though they would transform me.
*Phew*... I feel like I've just got a TON out of my system. 0_0 I hope this might be well-received and not seem too weird. :S
And please, if anyone is in anything resembling a similar situation to me, I'd be very happy to hear from you whether it's here or through pm.
Many, many thanks for reading if you got this far!
Yours,
- Brunella.
This post was last modified: 20-06-2012, 01:41 AM by Brunella.
Hi Brunella, i think your brave coming out and baring all like that 
i would say there are a lot of men out there who fantasize about large boobs or just boobs in general. Some men want to grow there own boobs as part of a sexual fantasy and find the thought of having breasts a turn on. I dont see it being different for women, i mean many women find breasts attractive, boobs are beautiful in all there shapes and sizes. I will confess when i started my NBE i had a small part of me that found growing boobs to be exciting. But whatever you think dont worry to much what your partner thinks, i mean men do love boobs in any size 
good luck chick.
Hugs Cheryl xxxx
i would say there are a lot of men out there who fantasize about large boobs or just boobs in general. Some men want to grow there own boobs as part of a sexual fantasy and find the thought of having breasts a turn on. I dont see it being different for women, i mean many women find breasts attractive, boobs are beautiful in all there shapes and sizes. I will confess when i started my NBE i had a small part of me that found growing boobs to be exciting. But whatever you think dont worry to much what your partner thinks, i mean men do love boobs in any size good luck chick.Hugs Cheryl xxxx
Brunella you are not alone. I am a straight female in a very committed relationship with a male & I am very obsessed with big boobs as well. I often think that it is my lack of that drives my desire for them, but all the same, I am embarrassed just like you. I hide the fact that they turn me on just like a guy even from my boyfriend (who I have always felt I could tell ANYTHING). He says that he loves me perfectly the way I am and supports my NBE journey, but I feel sad that I can't provide him with the full fantasy. O well... that's why Im hoping NBE works for me. I want to be able to look in the mirror and feel like a full woman and the ultimate fantasy - because, not to be conceited, but I have everything else. Just need my boobies.
Anywayz, don't feel alone. Happy growing to you.
Anywayz, don't feel alone. Happy growing to you.
You're not alone Brunella! I just like boobs full stop probably because I don't have much. I too as a child used to stare at the catalogues and collect the underwear pages male and female LOL. As a 3 year old I was mimicking my aunts and mother who were well endowed and stealing their underwear and stuffing them with socks or oranges.
I never grew whilst everyone around me did but I did also suffer a major messing up of my hormones at puberty after my father died when I was 11. I never actually stopped to think about this until I joined this forum and I understood I must have had a lot of stress hormones knocking around my system at the time. I also started my periods at 10 1/2.
So now I do want larger boobs for me and if the by product is my boyfriend being happy then that's fine too. He doesn't like big breasts at all oddly, but I would be happy being a 32b/c! Yes there is a sexual draw to it for me too, but a sense of achievement surpasses that as well as rectifying the psychological traumas from my childhood. Very deep, so it's not just about boobs!
I never grew whilst everyone around me did but I did also suffer a major messing up of my hormones at puberty after my father died when I was 11. I never actually stopped to think about this until I joined this forum and I understood I must have had a lot of stress hormones knocking around my system at the time. I also started my periods at 10 1/2.
So now I do want larger boobs for me and if the by product is my boyfriend being happy then that's fine too. He doesn't like big breasts at all oddly, but I would be happy being a 32b/c! Yes there is a sexual draw to it for me too, but a sense of achievement surpasses that as well as rectifying the psychological traumas from my childhood. Very deep, so it's not just about boobs!
Thanks for saying this. I'm surprised none of the other biological females on this site have mentioned this before (at least not that I'm aware of). I completely understand where you're coming from. For the most part I'm interested in having average sized boobs so that I can finally fill out average size clothes, but occasionally I wonder what it would be like to have very large breasts. On the rare occasion that I take the desire seriously I know that it's driven by fetishism. I admit it 
Like you, I also once cut out some pictures of topless women when I was very young, maybe 11. For some reason my mother purchased an arty fashion mag with lots of partially nude photos. The models weren't very large breasted, but a few had larger breasts than typical models so I was still interested. She would never have purchased such a thing if she had young boys in the house. Little did she know...
A while later my dad said he had found "weird" pictures of women and wanted to know which one of my siblings was responsible. Somehow he figured out it was me, and I was mortified. Finally he showed me what he had found and it was just some pages from my stupid "fashion" book full of pictures of clothes that I liked, as well as lots of glitter pen and stickers. I guess there must have been a few abercrombie and fitch or american apparel ads in there or something. I was relieved but only partly, because to this day he believes it was some kind of dirty book. What a strange coincidence.
Like you, I also once cut out some pictures of topless women when I was very young, maybe 11. For some reason my mother purchased an arty fashion mag with lots of partially nude photos. The models weren't very large breasted, but a few had larger breasts than typical models so I was still interested. She would never have purchased such a thing if she had young boys in the house. Little did she know...A while later my dad said he had found "weird" pictures of women and wanted to know which one of my siblings was responsible. Somehow he figured out it was me, and I was mortified. Finally he showed me what he had found and it was just some pages from my stupid "fashion" book full of pictures of clothes that I liked, as well as lots of glitter pen and stickers. I guess there must have been a few abercrombie and fitch or american apparel ads in there or something. I was relieved but only partly, because to this day he believes it was some kind of dirty book. What a strange coincidence.
This post was last modified: 24-06-2012, 07:11 PM by mochaccino.
Nope! You're not alone. For me personally it's full, perky C-cup breasts, which is my main NBE goal. I always told my (now ex) boyfriend when I let him in on my NBE journey that I just like breasts. Kind of like how some guys are attracted to women with large behinds or like large boobs, I like boobs. And I want to grow them for myself as well. It's weird how sometimes I can actually get a little turned on by my own breasts when I notice they're fuller or after pumping with my noogleberry. I just like breasts! lol! Which is why it can get a bit depressing sometimes seeing as in mine are pretty small. I'd just like for them to get big and round and actually shape a dress or top I'm wearing. Some years back if I saw pictures online of a lady with nice breasts in a flattering outfit, I would save it to my laptop as motivation for what I'd like to achieve in the future, kind of like how I'd save pictures of slim women as motivation for losing weight. Hopefully we'll all get the breasts of our dreams
I have had this fetish since I was about 8. The memories of how it came about are vague but its been a constant in my life. My interest has become more intense lately. My interest is extremely specific and I'm unsure why. The women must be of average size, skinny or hefty just not a BBW. She must be somewhat cute and her breasts must be completely natural with very large almost skin toned areolas at the ends or bottom area as if pointing down, with little or no nipple protrusion. The breasts must be huge, full and hanging. I've probably looked at every large breast porn site available trying to find these breasts. I can think of 2 women who fit this description. The first is a Japanese porn star Hitomi Tanaka and the second is retro porn star Yolanda Haskins when she was not pregnant. I've seen photos of her where her areoles are dark because I believe she may be pregnant. These photos do nothing for me. There is a video of her with a skinny white guy, shes wearing a headpiece and I truly fantasize about the swaying of her breasts pretty often. It would be great if my own breasts were large but Im ok with them being what they are, 36C. My husband thinks they're great....that's what matters. I'm a white female in my early forties. I haven't the first clue how I'd react if these breasts somehow found their way into my life. I would be completely mesmerized and probably just want to watch them move naturally. I remember seeing a woman walking toward me on the street who's breasts were outrageously huge and she had on no bra. She wore an oversized mans tee shirt but I nearly lost control of myself the turn on was so intense. This is the first I've heard of other straight women having large breast fetishes and its nice to have company... I've never written anything like this and I will add that I too am mortified of this fantasy fetish. I've told boyfriends but never got too deep into it with them since I'm so particular and I think they'd be grossed out by exactly how big I like them and how specific I am. One last thing... I don't like to watch women flopping them around doing jumping jacks and all that. I just like to see them in their natural state moving on their own or in clothing sometimes.... I wish so much I could just erase this desire from my head. I really do. I can find myself consumed with it. Other times I don't think about it for months. It's all so strange and writing it out makes it even stranger for me. Thanks for taking the time to read.
I think this is all very normal, i mean breasts are very beautiful in all shapes and sizes. When i was a man i use to look at some women and just wish i could have a chest like that as a man i was like my god what is wrong with me ? why do i want boobs 
it took a long time to except my feelings and do something about it. Breasts for men and woman are very interesting because there always hidden in our society and anything that is hidden always attracts interest, i mean is human nature to want to know and see things that may be we should not ? but i honestly think women should not have to feel they need to conform and cover up what in my opinion is a very natural and beautiful part of a human body. Breasts are natures gift to help nurture and they represent life. I know thats a very naturist way of viewing things but boobs are beautiful in all shapes and sizes so lets celebrate that and not have to worry about them
Hugs Cheryl xxxx
as a man i was like my god what is wrong with me ? why do i want boobs it took a long time to except my feelings and do something about it. Breasts for men and woman are very interesting because there always hidden in our society and anything that is hidden always attracts interest, i mean is human nature to want to know and see things that may be we should not ? but i honestly think women should not have to feel they need to conform and cover up what in my opinion is a very natural and beautiful part of a human body. Breasts are natures gift to help nurture and they represent life. I know thats a very naturist way of viewing things but boobs are beautiful in all shapes and sizes so lets celebrate that and not have to worry about them Hugs Cheryl xxxx
This is why I love this site so much, so diverse and open =)
I am definitely part of this club. Likewise I realized that I enjoyed looking at naked women whilst still in elementary school. We had hi-jacked cable when I was a kid an thus all the naughty channels. I knew that this wasn't normal little girl behavior (although I know believe there is no such thing) but never analyzed the sexuality aspect til much later. I definitely enjoy an adequately sized rack. I would even go so far as to say, when it comes to just looking I much prefer a woman's to a man's body. Buuuuut after a few experiments I've also realized I much more enjoy having sex with men than women...most times.
Like a few have mentioned, I've wondered if I'd have theses feelings if I had huge knockers myself but I do know some large breasted women who enjoy breasts. I findit interesting that most women with this fetish consider themselves straight. First let's compare this to a man saying, "I'm not gay but I LOVE a huge penis"...most women would run and hide whilst giggling uncontrollably. I'm not saying I think we're all big (I don't see myself as either more in between big and straight lol). Interestingly a man by the name of Alfred Kinsey did many studies into human sexuality and found that only %5 of people are TRULY straight or gay; the other %95 of people fell somewhere in between. There is even a test you can take to see where you fall. I've taken a version of it on the online dating site I was on (its free and I'm now engaged if anyone's looking lol OKCupid.com) and I believe it put me at big mostly straight. I found a link to Kinsey's research and I think you can take the test.
http://www.kinseyinstitute.org/research/ak-hhscale.html
I am definitely part of this club. Likewise I realized that I enjoyed looking at naked women whilst still in elementary school. We had hi-jacked cable when I was a kid an thus all the naughty channels. I knew that this wasn't normal little girl behavior (although I know believe there is no such thing) but never analyzed the sexuality aspect til much later. I definitely enjoy an adequately sized rack. I would even go so far as to say, when it comes to just looking I much prefer a woman's to a man's body. Buuuuut after a few experiments I've also realized I much more enjoy having sex with men than women...most times.
Like a few have mentioned, I've wondered if I'd have theses feelings if I had huge knockers myself but I do know some large breasted women who enjoy breasts. I findit interesting that most women with this fetish consider themselves straight. First let's compare this to a man saying, "I'm not gay but I LOVE a huge penis"...most women would run and hide whilst giggling uncontrollably. I'm not saying I think we're all big (I don't see myself as either more in between big and straight lol). Interestingly a man by the name of Alfred Kinsey did many studies into human sexuality and found that only %5 of people are TRULY straight or gay; the other %95 of people fell somewhere in between. There is even a test you can take to see where you fall. I've taken a version of it on the online dating site I was on (its free and I'm now engaged if anyone's looking lol OKCupid.com) and I believe it put me at big mostly straight. I found a link to Kinsey's research and I think you can take the test.
http://www.kinseyinstitute.org/research/ak-hhscale.html
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