Hi Dargona!
(28-11-2011, 01:34 PM)dargona Wrote: I wish you the best of luck,
Thanks!
Quote: I feel it's necessary to throw some of my own experience with PM in response. I've been taking upwards of 6000mg of PM during my simulated cycle, and over 3000mg of PM per day for about a week's time just to see if it makes any difference and honestly I can't tell a difference in my full-functioning. I've re-introduced maca a few days ago which once sustained my "horny level", but I'm not sure if it will work the same again (I can engage in sexual activities whenever the situation arises without much of an issue really).
I'm not quite clear on this... if you can't tell a difference in your full-functioning, why did you try to use Maca to sustain a "horny level"? Work the same as what?
It sounds to me like there is a difference now to a previous time?
Quote:My point in the response though before it gets too diluted is that for SOME people, such as MYSELF, who consider themselves in-the-middle or content being androgenous, there isn't a level of PM (unless it's above 6k mg for myself) that will completely deteriorate all form of male functioning.
I quite belive this, but what might make a difference is our age. Although I haven't had my T-levels tested, I think there is a general assumption that they taper off as you get older. I reckon I'm about 30 years older than you, and about the age when 'normal' people get ED problems due to lack of Testosterone. If that is so, then Estrogen or E-mimics are more likely to cause loss of spontaneous erections. I don't have ED now, but I physical stimulus, whereas without PM I only need mental stimulus.
Your next point is also important:
Quote:Perhaps for some this is a mental thing, but I've only recently gave thought to possibly living as a female and quite honestly my story is a lot different from the other TS stories I've read where they KNEW by some force that they were always the wrong gender. I have never once felt that same feeling or urge, but instead have always felt as though I was lacking breasts and the ability to express a mass percentage of my "other" side.
To me, (and this is only a theory) this would seem to indicate that there is a continuum in the TS condition.
If it is true that it is a congenital disorder dependent on the amount of androgen exposure to the male foetus at a particular stage; and if it is also true that this exposure develops the brain as either male or female in orientation; and if it also true that there is a smooth transition between male and female, and not some kind of hysterisis / toggle effect; then I would assume that there would exist individuals whose gender anxiety is not pronounced enough to drive them towards a totally female persona.
If that is true for you, I sincerely envy you; you have the best of both worlds!
Quote:Even on 6000mg of PM, the notion of actually transitioning has only skimmed the surface of my thought collective and usually gets outweighed by the fact that all my life, I instead knew that I was PARTLY the correct gender but was missing the physical portions to compliment the mainly female brain-wave/mindset/personality complex that existed and continues to exist.
Red Flag Alert
I may be alarmed unnecessarily
BUT
You need to think about this. The fact that, at 6g the thought of transitioning
has crossed your mind should alert you to the possibility of some 'reprogramming' that Beverley warned about.
I recommend that you go through all her posts, using the search utility. See how she starts out, very similar to you. Also older than you so with lower T-levels. T-levels lowered still further by using Saw Palmetto as well.
Her conversion from living in the female mode with no wish to lose her penis to disgust with it and wanting full transition took only 6 weeks!
If the thought of it has entered your head, then I suggest to you that it may be time to take a break, or go to maintenance for a while. I'd hate to think that overdosing on PM put your family into a crisis also!
Don't get me wrong. I think PM is a wonderful thing, if used with discretion.
BUT, I think the same thing about Morphine!
Quote:If I had to use any current-day english to express what category I would fall into, bi-gender may be the closest thing other than an unknown "third-gender." I'm not female and living entirely as female wouldn't work for me, but I'm not male either or perhaps I'm both in certain ways more than others.
I've no reason to disbelieve this, but, again, go through Beverley's postings.
Quote:Either way I know this line isn't clear cut for me and not because of my marriage, or my child; I've ALWAYS felt this way and after nearly a year of experimentation with FG/RC/SP/WY/Licorice and now, well over 4-5 months of solid/dedicated PM usage, guess what: I STILL feel the SAME way about who I am, although the herbals have definitely helped me attain and maintain the balance between my body and mind.
But you
did need them for your body/mind balance, didn't you? Just remember, that what is true now, need not be true tomorrow.. It's like they say about the stock market: past performance is no indicator of future success.
Please be careful. Be alert! If in any doubt, stop taking it for a while. The really, really great thing about PM, at least for me, is that it starts working again very quickly after a break, so you are not risking much by taking a break, but could be risking a great deal with sustained use!
Quote:tldr = I'm on high dosages of PM, and yes my random erections have diminished, but I'm still perfectly capable of having sex. You can omit my somewhat lengthy backstory, or read the full thing if interested
Again, they have diminished, so it could be worth taking a break to see if they improve. I find that a short break makes almost no difference to breast growth, though this might not be true for all.
Quote:EXPERIMENT TO THE STARS:
This is fun, so I think it's worth its own thread. I'll kick one off.
TTFN
B.x